ALL SADHANA IS ACTUALLY DONE BY THE SOUGHT, AS THE SEPARATE SEEKER DOESN’T EXIST! THE SHIFT FROM THE NOTION OF I/ME TO ABIDING AS I AM – THERE IS ONLY ONE ‘I’

CHANGE IS ONLY VISIBLE TO THE UNCHANGING – BECOME AWARE AND ABIDE AS THE CHANGELESS SELF.

Om chants begin…

So come…just relax…see yourself in that beautiful pool in front of you… this you have been doing from your very first gathering with us, so today become aware today how that itself was a stepping stone to witnessing… some aspect of you viewed yourself outside you…so you were outside the picture…!  The seeds for the move from seen to the Seer were sown long ago, now you reap the sadhana of the many years …

The shift has been described in many ways to you: from self to Self… from the seen to the seer… from the engaged involved participant (and its ’my life’/‘my troubles’) to awareness rather than what you are aware of - and now as the shift from ‘i’ /‘me’ unto ‘I Am’.  And this shift is the one and only step towards awakening…all other steps are but a prelude towards this. You can call it the dissolution of the ego notion, dis-identifying from that role played through you or simply awakening from the notion of ‘i’ ‘me’ to abiding as ‘I Am’. This the very root of ‘awakening’…it’s like pulling out the bottom most card from the house of cards (rather than dismantling it from top card by card)  -the entire illusion of the cards collapses! So once this root is removed- identification with the ‘i’ ‘me’- the entire house of illusion of your identity collapses…one single step…!

As a process it actually works both ways: initially it a better life even as the ‘i’ ‘me’- because you are better able to live in samsara as the witness rather than the engaged participant pulled up and down! And of course as witnessing is established, it leads to awakening…when there is no me to be concerned about ones samsara! This is ultimately the one and only step to awakening… the shift from the ‘i’ ‘me’ to the ‘I Am’ till ultimately even the ‘I Am’ drops.

We have started using this concept of the ‘i’/‘me’ - ‘I Am’ for a certain reason: it is imperative for you all to understand that there is always only one ‘I’! There are not two parts - as the concepts of self to Self or seen to Seer might make it sound -    there is only the one ‘I’- and this concept may subtly convey that to your subconscious.   The ‘i’ ‘me’ and ‘I Am’ (the seeker and the sought; the seen and the seer, the engaged participant and witness; the ego self and Awareness) are not two separate ‘I’s’:  It’s always the one I … God…Consciousness… I Am Presence (call it what you may) which in entering the game…in choosing to seemingly forget…in adopting an identity becomes the ‘i’ ‘me’- but it is always always always even throughout the ‘i’ ‘me’ stage - actually the ‘I Am’.

And therefore all the sadhana is actually done by the ‘I Am’…the ‘i’ ‘me’ doesn't exist! If an actor who identifies with his role in the movie needs to disconnect from that role, the role itself can do nothing, it’s the actor who engages in that practice of disconnecting from the role…! This is very subtle and very important for you to understand…there is only one ‘I’…’i’ ‘me’ and ‘I Am’ are just two ways of looking at the same ‘I’ .

Ramanna Maharshi has in fact called this the ‘I-I’…and so you shift from the ‘i’ ‘me’ notion  to the ‘I Am’; but there never was an ‘i’ ‘me…there never was a mirage…there never was that character that the actor identified with - and therefore truly this ‘shift’ from the ‘i’ ‘me’ to the ‘I Am’ is a simple awakening from the disillusionment…dis-identifying oneself with a notion.

Liberation is not for the ‘i’ ‘me’ but from the ‘i’ ‘me’. And all the work being done here in recent gatherings are towards this one single step…as you abide longer and quicker and firmer in the ‘I Am Presence’ more apparent is it to you that the ‘i’ me’ doesn't exist or has never existed - in that what is called ego disillusion takes place…just in the awareness…because there was no ego to actually dissolve! Like just the awareness that the seeming water is a mirage makes the water disappear    – it’s not that the water was there and is then removed!  And towards this… all you can do is whatever sadhana is happening through a you.  Indeed automatically through self enquiry the move from the ‘i’ ‘me’ to the ‘I Am’ happens. And therefore when we say you have to do your sadhana…we are not speaking to the ‘i’ ‘me’ but the I Am is speaking  the ‘I Am’- the ‘I Am’ has chosen to release itself from the illusion of  the ‘i’ ‘me’- that is why you are present here…that is why these gatherings

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We have in earlier gatherings  already mentioned to you some of the salient features of this witnessing…of self enquiry : a)  being stepping out of the picture…b) the  shift to the higher frequency (both of these have been done in great detail in the last few weeks) c) the third being the shift from the changing self/ ‘i’ ‘me’ to the changeless ‘I Am’…even this has been done before…but we will focus on it more today.

Of course these are not the only features of witnessing or self enquiry…there are many others as you shift from the ‘i’ ‘me’ to the ‘I Am’ : you shift from that small insignificant little self into becoming the vastness that you are; you move from chaotic noise within to the silence of your ‘I Am’ presence…you move from the ‘you vs me’ to the oneness of the ‘I Am’ presence…so many ways to describe it…each one done with you over the years.  And as you abide more and more in your I Am Presence you will see the changes in your day to day life…within samsara too!  In circumstances where you would have felt small and the situation outside you large, you will now be able to experience how the situation doesn't seem so large anymore…yes its there…a hiccup…a disturbance…a trouble…a issue…but you are larger than that…it doesn't take over you. The chaotic noise that would usually be present in the times of trouble now changes…yes the worry is there…yes the noise is there…the static is there  on the surface but at the very core is an inner silence you cannot describe…sometimes you even wonder how can I have this inner silence in this situation which seems so troublesome…but this is because are abiding in your ‘I Am’ presence. You may often experience this that you want to be angry…you may choose to say I will not talk to somebody…I will treat them badly…I will do this…I will do that but you find you cannot anymore…you say forget it…it doesn't matter…that is the shift from the you vs me…the oneness of the ‘I Am’.

And so instead of using the words from self to Self…we are now using the concept from ‘i’ ‘me’ to ‘I Am’…the same ‘I’…unchanging I! This is what we will focus on today:  The changeless Self.  That unchanging aspect within you…that which observes all the changes.  Become aware that even in witnessing it is Unchanging Self which witnesses the flow of changing thoughts…! Just become aware of this when you witness - and you become aware of that Unchanging Self! For the remainder of the week make this your focus…your mantra… your sadhana: awareness of the unchanging- changeless Self that I Am.

In fact if we are to bring up the three salient features again: moving out of the picture; shifting to a higher frequency; and shifting into the unchanging Self - if you are truly doing the sadhana you will become aware that the third - moving into the unchanging Self - is the simplest to do once you become aware of it - it is something you can do by yourself from within. To change to a higher frequency sometimes you might need a tool of positive thinking…a chant…a prayer…to step out of the picture you need to break free of it- and therefore one of the simpler features in witnessing and self enquiry is to become aware of, and therefore focus on, the unchanging changeless Self. Of course when you move into the changeless Self the other two features automatically becomes present because the moment you become aware of /move into/abide as changeless Self - you automatically move into its higher frequency and you step out of the changing picture! All are interlinked beloveds …find that which is your simplest point of connecting with the ‘I Am’…but for this week we urge you all to single mindedly be focus on that unchaining changeless Self.

That which is aware of the changes cannot be changing! Just like we told you that when you are aware of the chair you cannot be the chair…! In the same manner when you are aware of the changes - only something which is beyond the changes –which is unchanging -   can be aware of the changes surely? Become aware of this, don’t understand it intellectually – and it will become so obvious that you will feel “but of course”!  And then the Changeless Self becomes palpable and clear to tap into… and that’s what we urge you to do this week-  to own this not understand it!  Even now, become aware, which is that Self which hears this flow of words…the words are changing… emotions and feelings are changing…your understanding is constantly changing…but which is that unchanging changeless Self ware of these changes? And the moment you become aware of this changeless Self your frequency shifts to the higher frequency…you step out of the picture…! Witnessing happens!

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So we shall repeat some of the sadhana to abide in this unchanging Self…we have given this to you in your last few gatherings…and we shall repeat because this week this is your focus…not the shift into the Higher Frequency…not getting out of the picture…but becoming aware of and focusing and abiding in this changeless Self for as long as you can:

So first…first thing in the morning, the moment and we mean the moment your eyes open, or even before your eyes open…when you know you are awake…at that sacred point between sleep and waking become aware of that changeless Self of yours which is aware that you slept, which is aware that you dreamt; which is aware that you had a deep sleep; which is aware that you are waking now…!!!  There is some part of you that is aware of all these changes…and the very fact that there is this part of you that is aware of these changes it cannot be that changing self…it has to be the changeless…! Do this the moment you awake…don’t make it a intellectual repetition of what we are saying : spend a few moments till this unchanging Self is real…palpable…as real and as palpable as the ‘i’ ‘me’/ Divyaa self which you have taken as real. This Unchanging Self will become as palpable…as real…! So spend a few moments every morning: which aspect is aware of this self which wakes and sleeps and dreams and wakes …I Am that unchanging Self.

Secondly take this into your day…as you get up…as you go through the motions of your day…brushing your teeth…writing your notes…having your breakfast…going to work…there are many many many many changing events that make up a day…do you know how many millions of little little little little changes takes place through the day…millions if not billions…it’s a wholly changing flow that you call ‘a day’! It’s not a static day…it’s a ever changing flow …moment to moment - but there is some aspect of you who is aware of all those changes -you are aware that you have got up… had your breakfast… did this… did that… didn't do this… didn't do that…you are aware of those hundred little nano moments of change…who is that ? That is the Changeless Self.

Please be aware, and hear this well, there has to be something outside the changing ‘i’/ ‘me’ to be aware of the changes - or you would have been lost…unconscious from one moment to another! When you were eating you would have only known eating…when you were walking you would have only known walking…when you were working you would have only known working…you would not have known the different different different bits…! But you are aware of the changes, of the many many events and nano moments that make up the day…that is because of this Changeless Self…do this beloveds through the day…make this changeless Self real…palpable…a True Presence.

Then a third sadhana is become aware of this through the physical world!  Even the so seeming solid physical world is nothing but a flow of change! Just look out of your window…look at all the changes that take place in the physical world…the sea ripples…the birds flying…the cars rushing by…a dog is barking…people are walking…rushing about…seasons are changing, change…change…change…change…change. There can be not any scene in your physical world which is not made up of a billion little changes…ever changing…but there is this aspect of you that is aware of all these changes…this is the changeless Self .

Fourth:  see the physical body dance yet be aware of that unchaining still Self - see the physical body exercise…running…tread milling…be aware of that unchanging Self. Use these little exercises beloveds to tap into this unchanging Self…once you do you will not need them…then what you need to do after that is keep focusing on this unchanging Self till it becomes your natural state of being.

Again Please be aware, and hear this well, if this changeless Self did not exist you would have been aware only of the moment you are in nothing before or after! Change is only visible to the unchanging…! Again do this, tap into that unchanging Self- that changeless aspect which is aware of all the changes therefore cannot be changing! Tap into this presence - allow it to be real and as tangible as your physical self. In fact as you do this more and more, the physical self will loosen its hold on you and you will abide as the unchanging self aware of the ever changing me/divyaa self walking talking thinking etc - and this unchanging Self will be where you abide- it will become more real and the me/divyaa will be like a  little stick figure that you call you!

Fifth, and yes this may not be a personal experience but all of you are aware of the process of dying and reborn and dying and reborn and dying and reborn - so again be aware it is the changeless Self aware of these changes! Indeed t is the unchanging Self that you awaken to-  and therefore when you awaken to the changeless Self -  there is no more death…there is no more rebirth.

Sixth- now change of focus from outside to inside- do this don’t merely hear us and become  aware: I was happy five minutes ago, I am sad now…I was angry in the morning and happy now…I was anxious and now I am at rest…changing changing changing emotions…moment to moment…hour to hour ! But who is that Changeless Self who is aware of those changes…it has to be a changeless aspect that is aware of the changes or you would have plunged from one to another without being aware of the previous or latter! When you were sad you would have only known sadness…you would not have known that you were happy; when you were happy you would be only happy not known that there is also sadness…when you were angry you would have only known anger not known that you were peaceful…but you know that is not true beloveds…you see the entire gamut of changing emotion which is only possible because of the changeless Self. This is your sadhana: Tap into this moment to moment.  Be aware I was angry…I was sad…I was happy…I was this…I was that…that is the changeless Self who is aware! Own this…make it your experience not our words…and that changeless Self will become a true tangible  presence…and this changing Self will be like a stick figure with flickering ephemeral  emotions.

And if you do all of these, this changeless Self will become more and more palpable, you will then NOT need to do these steps to discover the changeless Self! It will become more and more apparent…more and more palpable…more and more real…! Sadhana is only to reach there! So spend the week just tapping into this changeless Self aware of the changes!  Soon you won’t need ‘the practice’, you will instantly be able to tap into this changeless Self…and abide in it quicker, firmer, longer.

Then the changeless Self will be experienced as a beautiful inner silence or inner stillness in the face and amidst the ups and downs. Be aware of this  when you are having an issue …all you have to do is tap into that Self who is aware of you having the trouble…that unchanging Self. Therefore do we say that it is easier to tap into this and use this changeless Self as a door way into self enquiry and witnessing rather than step out of the picture or raise your frequency.  Most of you experience this Self in meditation…it is so real…it is so tangible…that is why all your worries and troubles seem so far away in meditation…but take this out into your day…let that unchanging Self become the ‘Ah! This’…and the this i/me/Divyaa become the ‘oh ! that’

And a word of caution: running into your little igloo…suppressing…ignoring…denial is not tapping into the unchanging Self. If you suppress your anger…your emotions…your feelings…if you go into that little igloo of yours…you are doing yourself great disservice. You have to be aware of what you are feeling…surrender to those thoughts and then shift into that changeless place…not bury them…suppress them…that will lead not only to physical disease but at some point you will need to become aware of them !  So do not mistake artifice as witnessing.  So for the remainder of the week beloveds become aware of this changeless Self…that unchanging aspect…the inner silence…the stillness that knows the change…that knows the momentum…use your own common logic that which knows the momentum cannot be the momentum.

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We will now do some energy work with you so that it can enable this understanding energetically too:  See yourself as this large circle - this large circle represents you and your day to day life as it is… always changing… always moving… rushing about… feeling one thing… feeling another thing… acting one way…acting another - your day to day life as it is. And  view at your heart chakra there is a small pin point of stillness - the Unchanging- that you are all aware of amidst the rush and  changes…amidst the to and fro…the ups and downs…all of you are aware of that small little unchanging Self…the stillness…the I Am Presence. Do this. Be aware of the large circle which is your usual day to day consciousness/changing self/ your current identity - and the small dot in the centre which is the unchanging Self.

And now focus on that small dot- the unchanging self.  And even as you do that, as you focus single pointedly  on that unchanging dot ,  that little dot…that little part in you that you are aware of as the stillness/silence/changeless Self …the dot… starts to become bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger.

So as you do this, now, the large circle is the unchanging Self!  And that small dot in the centre is that changing self…! A complete shift…! The little dot of change will be present…it will remain…it cannot vanish…but right now you are the large changeless circle who can thus witness that little changing self/dot and be unaffected!  Which because you are so vast and large you can now simply witness…! This is an energetic diagram if you like of what’s happening through meditation … a complete reversal start to takes place… you tap into that little dot…the I Am presence… which then becomes the vastness where you abide. And the changing self where you abided becomes a little dot! Do this a couple of times to enable you energetically… simply doing this without the sadhana will not work…but doing this along with the sadhana it will help you s a kriya energetically.

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Come beloveds one more kriya to help establish you in the unchanging Self: Do this; see a scene…use a visual of perhaps a family gathering… (That’s always a good trigger) …I love her…I hate her…she is mean…she is this…she is that…she is beautiful…she is ugly…! This is all the changing ‘i’ ‘me’. Do this: you are looking upon a scene, and your mind is going Ah lovely! Oh   ugly! Ah fair! Oh unfair! I want…I don’t want…! I am happy…I am sad!  

And now the same scene, the very same scene, but you are looking at it through a camera and there is no you behind the camera!  You are the camera without the you…without the ‘i’ ‘me’…an objective camera lens; and when an objective camera lens looks at the VERY same scene…no reactions…no good…no bad…no right…no wrong…no beautiful…no ugly…no thin…no fat. All that happened in this was the ‘i’ ‘me’ moved out and the changeless Self (the camera in this analogy) stepped in.

Try  this sometimes when you are looking upon a particularly aggravating scene…look at it through the lens of a camera and remove yourself from the equation…let the camera look upon it…enable the shift from the changing entangled involved up and down  self to the still I Am Presence.

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Let your self enquiry continue: Do the steps we outlined above.  Question yourself who is it that sees these changes? If there is someone who sees these changes that must be changeless… and as I see all the changes physical/emotional- that means I Am that changeless Self!

And the moment you tap into this changeless Self - the higher frequency, out of the picture, small to vast,  noise to inner silence,  emotions to objectivity…witnessing…happens! Indeed become aware that even that self of yours which did the basic tools of positive thinking…non judgement…forgiveness etc  was the unchanging Self…! There had to be some point outside you who could do with the positive thinking…who could do the forgiveness.

So yes beloveds we have been training you right from the beginning…that journey has led to this…and this journey does not mean a dropping of all those concepts… which you may now call the basics - in fact that will happen more and more spontaneously…forgiveness and non judgment and the positive state of being rather than the artificial practice of positive thinking. So now when you forgive someone…when you step into non judgement…when you employ positive thinking become aware at that point…become aware which part of me can do that ? It cannot be the involved entangled self…Ah ! This is the changeless Self…I Am Presence…!

And therefore the shift from ‘i’ ‘me’ to ‘I Am’…the ‘I’ is the same…there is no ‘i’ ‘me’…all the work…all the sadhana is being done by the ‘I Am’. And this awareness…just this awareness that the ‘I Am’ is doing it all helps you to further surrender…! So allow this ‘I Am’…unchanging Self  to be real…tangible…so real that you the i/me appear the shadow…and the seeker becomes the sought and the sought the seeker!

The entire gathering of however minutes you were here was a series of change…different words…different concepts…different levels of attention focus…different levels of physical comfort and discomfort…a series of changes but you are aware of that…and that which is aware of these changes is unchanging. And if you are aware of something you cannot be that something so you are the unchanging Self. You may open your eyes whenever you are ready but be aware of that Self which is aware that you came here…you chatted…you laughed…you closed your eyes…you went into mediation…you opened your eyes again…that Self who is aware of these cannot be these.

I Am That…I Am This…This…This unchanging Self.

And So It Is…And So It Is…And So It Is.