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MEDITATIVE
IMAGERY -MOVING INTO I AM ...THAT.
Dearest all,
This is a rough transcribe of a meditative
journey into I AM NESS. Go beyond the words...! The imagery works like a
yantra- modern yantra's- which directly impact your subconscious and
unconscious allowing their truths to permeate you energy wise/experientially -
rather than only understanding it intellectually! You may stop at any
para...or go all the way...! We do it to music...as a group...with each of use
deeply connected to Self...in different alpha to theta zones. 'My' words spontaneously
arise... in the back ground! This is NOT an intellectual discussion or
discourse…so yr mind is not questioning or debating... or trying to understand...and in
this it unravels deeply within 'you'...thus as a transcribe too, it is not an
intellectual discussion covering the topic...just a facet to experience within
if you resonate to it...
VIEW SELF SITTING ACROSS AN EXQUISITE GLOWING
SHIVA/OR A GLOWING LETTER I. And view behind this Shiva or letter I… a
series of them … each becoming just a little taller and wider and glowing more
potently than the one before it… so it feels like a upward stairway of Shiva’s
or I’s! Like a finely graded series of statuettes going infinitely higher wider
and taller till the last that you can see fills up the cosmos- formless
indeed-only the glow- perhaps! And know these are all ‘you’! And as your I Am
presence expands… you abide in the higher and larger Selves… you abide as
awareness Itself! But you simultaneously exist as all!! You are simultaneously
the largest focus of All That Is…and the ‘smaller’, more finely honed, current
focus too!
(Silence…soft music)
AS YOU DO THIS, THE ‘YOU’ WHO WAS SITTING
ACROSS & OBSERVING THESE ASPECTS OF SELF… DISAPPEARS! There was no
effort to move from the ‘personality’ ‘ego’ self …! As you became aware of and
focused on and aligned with your (range of) I am presences…you automatically
moved into it!
(Silence…soft music…)
NOT LOOKING AT THEM ANYMORE, BUT NOW
LOOKING THROUGH THEIR EYES - AS THEM! And ultimately as the largest-
awareness Itself- established in your I Am presence! And yet, as current self,
who is not anymore the personality but an ‘I am’ presence! Now…move your focus
up and down the range…as each…looking through each... because firmly
established as Awareness or ‘I Am’ or Shiva …you simultaneously exist in/as all
Its focuses! (And thus find it easy to move into whichever one is required in
the Now!)
(Silence…soft music…)
NOW… MOVE INTO THE FIRST OR ‘SMALLEST’
SHIVA OR LETTER I… (yr most finely honed Shiva focus/ I am presence)
and become aware that as this ‘smallest’ I am presence you are aware of or can
view only your current life! But as you move into a higher/larger Shiva /
letter I/ I Am presence you can view or are aware of…. increasingly more … the
planet… the world… the solar system… galaxies… universe… cosmos…
masters…gods…All thingness…! Allow this eureka/experience to wordlessly go
through your energy field! Become aware as you expand your awareness/Shiva/I
am… you see the larger and larger picture!
(Silence…soft music…)
NOW… MOVE INTO THE FLIP SIDE- INTO WHAT
YOU AS THE ‘SMALLEST’ SHIVA/ I AM- ARE AWARE OF! Move into what
awareness is aware of! Into Shakti! (If Shiva or the letter I symbolizes
awareness- then for today- Shakti symbolizes what that awareness is aware of!)
Thus be the smallest Shiva …and then become what that smallest Shiva is aware
of –your current life! Be this experience- its many nuances, the ups and downs
and good and bad’s etc- don’t intellectualize!
Now from this point- (where you are experiencing
Self as the smallest beingness/Shakti…your current life) MOVE YOUR
FOCUS FROM THE SMALLEST SHIVA/LETTER I… HIGHER AND HIGHER BUT STILL VIEWING
YOUR CURRENT LIFE! AND OBSERVE HOW DETACHMENT HAPPENS! Observe how
empowerment happens! Observe how surrender happens! Observe stillness and love
and compassion …indeed how the experience/beingness/ Shakti/ current life…
subtly changes! Nothing physically changes… and yet it all changes! Allow all this to go through your
energy field… Be light… move up and down the Shiva’s… and into different
aspects of being… from current life to the universe and all thingness! Enjoy…!
(Silence…soft music…)
NOW… IF YOU WANT TO GO FURTHER (YOU CAN
STOP AT THIS POINT): THINK OF A CURRENT ISSUE IN YR LIFE. Move from
all those Shiva’s and I am presences into viewing the issue as current ego self
amidst in it! View current ego self trying hard & making efforts towards
its resolution! And observe the almost self defeating grapple and confusion.
Now move your focus into the higher and higher Shiva’s/Letter I/ I am
presences…. and watch how the guidance flows; how as your larger I am presence
flows into it…addresses it…the issue seemingly resolves more and more
spontaneously…effortlessly…! Sit with this awhile and allow this to go through
your energy field beyond words- that as you abide in or establish as your
larger and wider I Am presence…Its flow Its consciousness flows into all things
you call current life too… and thus current life enters the flow beyond ‘you’!
(Silence…soft music- these images I receive are
like modern yantra’s- they directly impact your subconscious and unconscious
allowing this to permeate you energy wise/experientially - rather than only
understanding it intellectually)
PART 2
START AFRESH: ALLOW THE IMAGERY OF THE
GAMUT OF SHIVA’S/LETTER I’S… TO COME BACK IN FRONT OF YOU. Focus,
align and move into them so there is no current ‘you’. And as you become these
Shiva’s or letter I’s… observe how they/you… multiply from a single line into
360 degrees of lines… so you are now circle of Shiva’s or letter I’s. Your I am
presence is at every point of all that is!
(Silence…soft music)
NOW… THE SYMBOLIC SHIVA’S OR LETTER I’S
BEGIN TO DISSOLVE…INTO BEING DIFFERENT PEOPLE OR SPECIES OR LIFE FORMS …into
the world or a tree or a stone or a mountain or a planet etc etc….you are
literally all that is. And it arises in you I am the sun I am the tree I am the
stone I am x I am y I am the grain of sand I am that…I am that… I am that.
Sit in this for a while: being All That Is -
Awareness - and its experience; or Awareness and that you are aware of (Shiva
and Shakti)!
(Silence…soft music)
AND ALLOW ANOTHER SUBTLE SHIFT THAT
HAPPENS SPONTANEOUSLY: Somewhere you move from I am that I am that I am the sun I am the tree
I am the stone I am x I am y into : That I am; That I am; The sun I am; the
tree I am…. This is very subtle and cannot be put into words…but you move from
I am- into Thatness- into That you are- into Thatness/Isness- and slowly as you
sit in Thatness… it becomes This…! Not some abstract concept to understand but
A descirptionless expereinceless experience of….; The forms dissolve, the
Shiva’s and letter I dissolves, the sun and moon and stone dissolve…and all is
a sort of midnight blue …
There is no you… no thingness…( but even as I
speak you are back….so I keep silent…)
(Silence…soft music)
If you find yourself losing this… falling out of
it so to say… then chant! Chant your regular chant if you have any- or chant Om
Babaji Namah… Om Babaji Namah…be the chanter chant and chanted…and allow it to
take unto Itself…
PART 3
NOW: VIEW YOUR MASTERS EYES/BABAJI EYES. See
consciousness …Love … ‘That’ what you label- can’t flow out of ‘Him’…towards
the ‘you’ that is yet left. Become aware of your love flowing back… your
yearning to blend merge dissolve unto Babaji. See yourself going through his
eyes…going unto him… blending merging … there is no you only him…(go beyond my
words for they now come in the way) …there is only Babaji…Babaji I am. In this…
as Babaji …Babaji expands dissolves into all thingness and no thingness….and so
do ‘you’.
(Silence…soft music)
THIS IS ONE OF THE MOST IMPORTANT ‘TASKS’
A GURU PERFORMS FOR YOU- all others are but steps towards this moving
into your I Am ness; and final dissolution even beyond I am That. When we move
into I Am ness, it is the ego self that is dissolving – but this part is
relatively easy as we expanding into All That Is. But when even as I Am… as All
That Is…we dissolve into nothingness there is a flutter… a resistance to no
thingness. And only the desire to merge and become one with your Master,
removes that resistance –like you yearn to lose self in a lover. And in this do
we surrender even our I am ness into being Him…Babaji…. And as Him Babaji
…ofcourse its not our effort any more, ‘he’ dissolves and so do we….
(Silence Om Swaha is played…)
THUS OM IS BECOMING ALL THAT IS; AND
SWAHA IS DISSOLVING BACK INTO NO THINGNESS. Thus Om is become aware
of, and Swaha is that which Om becomes aware of- the pure non experience
beingness… call it Source if you like; Void if you like; That if you like;
nothingness if you like; pure momentum that the stillness of awareness
seemingly brings to life… immaculate conception …but this is another
topic…another meditative experience…
Silence…soft music-..... SILENCE....THE GROUP
SITS IN SILENCE...
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