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MOVING
FROM PERSONAL IDENTITY-THE BIG LEAP -APRIL 2011
(link to the more concise article format is at the bottom)
SHARING
BEFORE THE MEDITATION:
All these years we have been bridging the seeming separation
and ignorance of self from Self/ Consciousness/ All That Is (call it what you
may). When there is no separation… I am All That Is. When there is no ignorance
I Am All That Is! Thus as we have increasingly been bridging the seeming
ignorance and separation... we are increasingly becoming one with All That Is!
Or as we have been decreasing the sense of ignorance and separation …we are
increasingly becoming one with All That Is!
Yet…in the now…we come to another step along this journey to
Self… and that is moving away from personal identity/individuated self/ ego
self/ the Divyaa (put your name here) self! It’s a big one...the hooks we hang
our hats on…and a leap compared to all that has been done so far!
(Yes we have done it meditatively a couple of
years ago...the meditation on dissolving the hooks we hang our identity hats
on…but on retrospect I understand that …that was seeding it into us as a
preparation for us to now wholly embrace it… we still had the bridging of
separation and ignorance…yet it was seeded unto us to be ripe for the time we
could each take this leap! So yes this is what’s ‘happening’ to the divyaa self
in the Now…I don’t meditate anymore… but this is what happens in those split
seconds of meditation that happen spontaneously…and as whatever transpires in
these group meditations is personal sharing…whatever ‘divyaa’ goes through we as a group are going through... )
INTRO
TO THE MEDIT:
Close your eyes... relax…( let the words already spoken be the fertile
soil for the seeds of this meditation to take root in… don’t seek to
understand…just allow the energies encased in the words to fill you …to flower
whenever is right for you…). Come sense
…this ‘energy’ that we are sitting in… this… that is so profound…we have no
word to describe it… is That Being ness… or That Consciousness… in which…(or more
accurately- as which) we will abide when we are beyond the individuated personalized
ego self. Yes some of us visit this Beingness time to time, some are more
established in it, some are at the beginning of this journey...some in the
middle... none of us are wholly abiding in/as as That... yet know...that what
is being done through these ‘meditation sessions’… is a
subconscious...energetic… loosening of the individuated ego selves ...and will
be ‘stored’ for in your energy field… for when Consciousness requires the leap to be taken
through a ‘you’…
Come to that ‘space’… that you reside with us when we gather here
every Tuesday...all of you already know that this is not a physical place you
visit...it is that realm… that frequency… where you meet abide as Self. Today...This…energy…sacredness…
consciousness… This being ness which you are experiencing…is beyond the
separated ignorant self… beyond the ego self; there is no way to say this in
words...because there is no ‘you’ to ‘experience’ it…so go beyond the words….
MEDIT
BEGINS-
Come beloveds see the air filled with what you will call the
waves of a television or a radio... (all of you are
aware that what you see on your television screen are actually waves and
frequencies ...)so see the air where you are sitting filled with these
waves…frequencies… bytes… call it what you like...they are floating around.
And now become aware of an antenna or a radar…( or
whatever you call it) and you will observe that the moment there is an antenna
or a radar, it picks up these frequencies & waves, and beams them onto a
television screen. We will repeat the
imagery: the television frequencies, waves, bytes were already in the air…
of all the programs indeed of every program being aired. And then you observe
an antenna or radar...and observe that it is this antenna that picks up these
waves… picks up these bytes… and displays them on its TV screen.
Now… observe this antenna dissolve… it is
dissolving… see it is not there
anymore… and become aware what happens? The frequencies, waves, bytes… are
all over the place as they were before... with no antenna to pick them
up...they are just all there in space…in the air!
Now we will take you deeper... the same place/space
you are in is filled not with tv/radio waves/bytes but with a stream of
consciousness…what you call the cosmic play…everything that has ever
happened… or happening ...existence itself... beingness…consciousness foray
unto Self…every experience… every event… every thought… every idea…every
nuance….all that is… is swirling around in this beautiful space ...
And ‘you’ the personal identity is that antenna! Yes,
become aware… of sitting there and you the personal self as the antenna! As you
do this (see yourself as the antenna…) you become aware that ‘you’ are picking up from that cosmic play…
whatever frequency ‘you’ are vibrating at! And therefore from that vastness
of the cosmic play, from that infinite stream of consciousness/beingnesss -
you, the personal you, the identity you (which we are showing you in the symbolic
image of an antenna) is picking up from that multitude - a certain range… based
on your frequency…what your personal
energy field vibrates at/as!! And that is becoming like the TV screen... you
life events and experiences...your life stories..! Become aware of what we are
seeding unto you... the awareness that only when there is a ‘you’… a personal
individuated identity...does it pick up from the cosmic play/cosmic impulses/ stream
of consciousness! And this is what are called ‘your thoughts’ and thus what
becomes ‘your life experiences and events’….
And now, be in heightened awareness and watch … ‘you’ the personal identity dissolve… the symbolic image of you as an antenna
dissolve! See that…and thus become
aware as there is no you/ no antenna... once again only the stream of
consciousness is present…only the cosmic play...only the cosmic play...only the
cosmic play... beingness …beingness… beingness… we are seeding your sub
conscious with this most abstract understanding. Just like it requires an antenna
to pick up radio or TV waves…it requires a you…a personal identity… to attract
bits of the cosmic play...the cosmic impulses…beingness…consciousness
being/exploring itself! When there is no
you...there are no your thoughts...no your life events...there is only the
cosmic play... and you automatically are witness!
Repeat
the symbolic imagery to energetically work in you….view all the television
programs, stories, songs, every byte swirling around; as an antenna pops up in
that space...it attracts to it from that multitude… whatever that antenna’s
frequency is… and downplays it on the television set. When the antenna
dissolves, there are only all those bytes again, belonging to no one… no
particular program … thus no TV on
which they can come! Replace that with step 2: the air is now filled with the
cosmic play- everything that has ever happened or will happen from the so
called beginning to the so called end is swirling around- belonging to no one-
nobody’s thoughts… nobody’s life…nobody’s story… just cosmic impulses….the
cosmic play. But as you reappear…even as you see yourself...you are the
antenna…you attract to it those parts
that your frequency attracts...they become your thoughts...they become your
life story. As you dissolve…no you...no your thoughts...no your life stories or
experiences...only the cosmic play. Sit in this for a few moments... be beyond
the words….do not try and analyze or understand...experience no-self ...the
expansion... the freedom...the lightness... beautiful…(not descriptions but
pointers only as there are no words to go there! Even no-self becomes a label
–it gives form to the formless and a description the descirptionless so go
beyond the word… )
Now beloveds come back to that space and come back to
yourself as an antenna... and become aware that it is your frequency that
attracts to it the bytes from the cosmic play! So as you raise your frequency…
as you bridge the separation...as you bridge the ignorance...your frequency
rises ... and as your frequency rises… you pick up from the cosmic play...its
higher…finer…more beautiful experiences and thoughts. And yet, like any antenna,
you vibrate to a range of frequencies, from your highest to your lowest...and
therefore your lowest energies...your lowest frequencies pick up from the
cosmic play the denser thoughts… the worries…the more troublesome
experiences... the more limited experiences and life events. This will answer
some of you- why when you abide in a higher & finer frequency-when your
thoughts are usually the higher finer ones- why are there moments of denser
thoughts and experiences! Because beloveds… each of you have a range…and thus a
lower end too! Your higher frequency attracts to you the higher finer thoughts…
and the lower frequency attracts to you the lower thoughts…
And this is the trick: so simple beloveds - keep raising your
frequency - because as your frequency rises...your lowest frequency is becoming
higher and finer… and higher and finer...and higher and finer...!! More so like
an antenna has its usually set setting…you have a setting where you abide in
most of the time…lets call it your centre of attention... and this centre of attention is what
attracts to you the multitude of your thoughts and experiences! And therefore
beloveds… so simple...so simple...all you have to do is raise the centre of
your attention...so that the higher becomes higher &finer… and the lower
becomes higher and finer...and the centre keeps raising and thus do you attract
like wise from the cosmic play….and abide in higher finer thoughts and
experiences!
Repeat this visually now...see yourself as this beautiful
long thermometer if you like. See your centre of
attention …wherever it shows up...this frequency attracts to it from that
cosmic play…from all its experiences…what become your thoughts...! The lower
frequencies attract the lower ones...the higher ones the higher ones...and all
you all are doing through these sessions… through your lives...as you bridge
the separation...as you bridge the ignorance... you are raising your centre of
attention...and as you abide in higher and finer frequencies you attract from
the cosmic play those higher and finer thoughts and feelings and ideas and
experiences...what you call love… and abundance…and joyfulness.
Now see your thermometers...see where your centre is…and
raise it…slightly up...and a little more up...and in today’s session a little
more up… and higher…and higher… till you are at the tip of that thermometer...so even your lowest frequency is at the
very top. This is what happens to you all in meditation…and that is why you
feel so good...!
And if your lowest frequencies are at the very top...your
highest frequency has gone beyond the thermometer… beyond the antenna of self… beyond personal self… individuated
self… beyond ego self... and now like we
did with you in your last session... take the leap...jump off the tip of
that thermometer...jump off the tip that antenna...so that you jump off
completely from personal identity… from individuation's… from your ego
self...you may land on a cloud…because initially you need something to identify
with...so I am the cloud...but even the cloud dissolves...I am the sky... but
even the sky dissolves…I am Ether...even Ether dissolves...I am
consciousness...even that dissolves...there is no I am...there is just
isness...no identity...no self...nothing to attract anything… you are part of
the cosmic play...events are happening… but there is no doer thereof. Stay
in this for a few moments...call it is ness if you like...call it the cosmic
play if you like ...no identity whatsoever…not even I am...then go beyond the
need to call it something…go beyond the words….
Allow
this to seed unto you. No
self...no individuation...nothing to attract a portion of the cosmic
play...nothing on which the cosmic play can attach itself to. Yes… beloveds… when
there is no self there is nothing on which the cosmic play can attach itself
to...and in this ‘you’ are the cosmic play...events are happening but there is
no doer thereof. (Alas .. even though ‘you’ are now the cosmic play and not you
….we have to use the word ‘you’ in speaking). Stay in this for a few moments.
Now let’s go deeper: (You) as the cosmic play…look down… and
be aware that all the antennas are still there...! It is ‘you’ who has detached from the antenna that you are...you that has
detached from the personal individuation… and therefore the current self is
still there... the divyaa self (put your
own name) is still there….but its not ‘you’(or where your consciousness
resides) ... ‘you’ are the cosmic play...! Become aware of all the antennas:
the Hamsi…and the Anju...and the Divyaa…etc etc are all there…and therefore the
Divyaa and the Anju and the Hamsi… continue their life stories...their
vibrations continue to attract to them requisite thoughts and experiences ...!
Yes, ‘they’ are raising their frequencies, but ‘you’ as the cosmic play have
nothing to do with any of them/that… indeed as the cosmic play your
identification with the Divyaa self (put your own name here) or ‘others’- with
the Hamsi self or Shaila self or Heena self is one and the same- you are not
more attached/identified with the divyaa self than the other selves!
Let’s go deeper: (You) as the cosmic play…are looking down…
and see all these selves/ identities like those wound-up toys children have... and each one is playing itself out like any winding toy does when its winding/charge
goes out! Each ones
winding is being played out….what you all call their
‘karma’ is the analogical charge/winding that is playing out. So yes they …the
divyaa self (put your own name here) and other selves are living their lives...
raising their frequencies...and the winding is playing out and like a wound up
toy they are moving around…some have just being wound up and are in full
steam…in some the charge is running out! But remember…all
of them...all those humans /personal entities/ antennas/wound up toys…are one
and the same you as the cosmic play...
you don’t identify with yourself anymore than you do with the others...they are
all wound up toys of the cosmic play ... and as each ones charge finished
only then will they subside.!
Lets go deeper: this is important but we have no words to
say this …so we say it in words that do not do it justice so go beyond the
words: While ‘you’
are the cosmic play there is no personal
you- and as long as ‘you’ (though there is no you we need to use the word to
speak ) abide as the cosmic play… as this awareness… as Universal Consciousness….and
the non personal you - then the ‘you’… the Divyaa’s and the Hamsi… the current selves ….are not being
further wound up due to lack of life force/attention/personal identification to
keep them going...and therefore their charge is diluting automatically…...! Of course the
moment we have spoken this...the moment all of you have got concerned that
...Ahh ...by being part of the cosmic play… I… the Divyaa self (put your own name here) am dissolving/evolving ... you have attached back
to personal self...! But…it cannot be done in any other way through words ... so
beloveds forget concerns about what is happening to your current /personal selves...
whether they are dissolving/evolving.. .just abide as the cosmic play …moment
to moment abide as Universal Consciousness...!
Let’s go deeper and become aware that when you are Universal
Consciousness, you are its qualities… or aspects… or essence...!
You are bliss...you are in the now...you are pure acceptance...you are
witness...you are all those terms you read and learn about… automatically...!
Lets us seed into you something of great importance: as a Universal Consciousness you
are bliss -you are not joy… not love... not abundance...that is for the higher
frequencies... you are even beyond that... you are bliss which is beyond the
opposites of joy and not joy … beyond the idea of abundance and not abundance...beyond
the ups and downs...
Don’t worry if this is abstract for some of you... just be
in this energy field …in the spaces between the words…non
self.. .non doer… Universal Consciousness; just relax into the energy field of
beingness… the cosmic play... events and deeds but no doer thereof...! Be
like a firecracker which has burst into a hundred… zillion sparks...there is no
identity attached to each spark...tap into the non self ness ... beyond
identity ness... words like freedom… like lightness… like vastness...may come
up in description…but it is beyond description…indeed at its deepest its beyond
experience as there is no you to experience it.. Whatever we have emanated….spoken…
has been seeded deep into your sub conscious minds...it will unravel at the
right time… in the right way... whenever ‘you’ need it! Indeed you will read it
here… you will come across it there… and you will say oh! I understand this so
wholly somehow... !
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ENERGY WORK:
Now we will work with you energetically...allow
the essence of the non self...where there is no personal self… where there is
only universal self… the cosmic play... events and experiences without
identity…and allow one drop to splash on to your crown chakra...allow it to
coat & permeate your pituitary gland...(this is between your third eye and
where a pony tail would come out in the middle of your crown.....it is your
master gland which orchestrates your beingness and it will emanate this essence into your entire
energy field as and when required.)
And as this is happening-as the pituitary gland is emanating
this non self essence unto you-see a strange image: little… little…
little...circles are falling out of you...almost like sticky tape patches are
falling out of you: all those identities you have held from the beginning to
the end...all those identities which are still there are being released...! So
view literally little…little sticky patches… symbolic of the identities which
had attached themselves to you…deep within you… are now falling out...being
released…coming unstuck… and scattering and dissolving…all these identities
which don’t serve you any longer. See this symbolic imagery …release; feel the
release…know the release ...little…little circles…sticky patches…falling
away….feel the lightness.
Once again...focus on the pituitary gland which is emanating
this essence unto your deep sub conscious …into all those pathways of your
mind... detaching from you all those identities you
have held from what you call the beginning of time...that you have yet not let
it go of...see wires being unplugged.. synapses being undone...
Once again focus on the pituitary gland emanating this
essence of the non self or universal self.. .this time a drop falls within you
onto your solar plexus chakra. Ahh... helping dilute
current selfs’ identities and roles...(do not worry, those which need to be
maintained will be maintained...they are sacrosanct…)only which you are
required to move from are being shaken
loose… diluted… or for some of you... dissolved. Circles after circles are
falling away...wires after wires are being dismantled ... past/ present/ future
identities are being shaken loose… or removed… or dissolved. Current
self...current identities...current attachments…roles are being
loosened…dissolved. No self = no
thoughts = no attachments...no worries...= cosmic play...bliss...! And yet
remember the previous steps we have taken you through today ...the current
selves are still there...they will continue to do their ups and downs…to raise their frequencies ...but you are not
the current self anymore ...
Relax
...so much work...so much work has been done that it would take you a lifetimes
to do it w/o this inner work… so come
back to that beautiful space ... the green grass...the fresh flowers…the
rolling hills...the blue skies...see in the pool there is no image...there is no image...the pool only reflects all
that is...
Once again…we will work on you all energetically...focus on
your root chakra. Know that that essence from the
pituitary gland has now worked its way into your root chakra...releasing from
your root chakra... all those identities and attachments and roles that you
don’t require...at the very physical and current level..! Release...release...release...
see those circles after circles after circles releasing...see pathways/synapses
at your root chakra being snapped open…all those attachments that are only
there because you are there...when you are not there where can there be
attachments...! All those ‘goals’ when there are no you...how can there be your
goals...it is the cosmic play that will work and function through you... no
you...no attachments...no goals...no attachments...no you...release from your
root chakras...
Now watch that same drop from the pituitary gland drop on
your second chakra...the sacral chakra...this
is where you house your fears. Fears only arise when there is a you...so when
there is no you ... there are no fears...and therefore watch this non self
essence work at your second chakra...removing all sense of you...and as there
is no you...there are no fears...and as there are no fears...as there is no
you...you are being filled at this most all important chakra...with pure
being...with pure knowing...with fresh prana ...with Universal Consciousness...
with the cosmic play that you are...that is why it is known as the chakra of
chi.. i
Now focus on the solar plexus chakra once again...and a big
drop of that essence falls from the pituitary gland...because this is the
chakra of identity... of I am ness...yes your I
am ness expands…and has expanded over the years... from current self… to larger
self…to soul self… to Universe…to God self... but at some point…at some point…
beloveds...you are ready to go beyond all identity…even beyond I am…and it is
at the root...sacral…and solar plexus chakra...mostly at the solar plexus that
you move away from I… even expanded I...you move from I AM THAT to
THATNESS ..
It is these three lower chakras which keep
you in personal identity...in personal consciousness… individuated self... and humanity
is ready to go beyond these three chakras...beyond personal individuated
self into oneness. chakras are all interconnected… not sealed off from each
other… and therefore though the heart chakra is the chakra of oneness, leaks
from your lower three chakras, find
themselves to your heart chakra...and therefore it is here that you feel the
jealousies…and the attachments…and the loneliness… and the lack...but when you
have worked on the lower three chakra's… when there is no self to leak into your
heart chakra ...the chakra is the chakra of oneness...Universal
Consciousness...cosmic play... what you call love...that is all love
is...when there is no you and me...there is love...let that essence work on
your heart chakra ...
And now that splash onto your throat chakra...this
is even ‘more’ (if we can use such a word…) a chakra are oneness… of unity…of
no self...it is the chakra of pure expression...the pure expression of the
cosmos...creation...the cosmic play...no doer
thereof.! Once again because of leaks/bleed through from your lower
chakras- does your throat chakra get affected...and the comparisons come up...does
your expression become limited...! Concerns of you and who you are …bleed into
the throat chakra to limit its free flow expression ...but when there is no
you...you are one with pure expressions itself...you are one with the cosmic
play...
And now experience that drop onto your third eye...all
thing ness...no thing ness...no self. once again...its only because of the
bleed through that this chakra can get tampered with...otherwise this is the
chakra...of no one...no thing...or all thing ness...the Universal
Consciousness...no separate self...
Continuously see those symbolic sticky circles peeling away
and falling out of your lower three chakras...so
that when there is no you or me… the higher three chakras are coming
increasingly into their true essence... love… pure expression... the cosmic
play...all thingness ...no thing ness ...become like the fire cracker which has
burst into the sky....each identity less spark is whizzing...shining...dying
out...
Be the cosmic play...events are happening...deeds are
happening ...but there is no doer thereof...and just
sit in this energy field. Of course… as long as you have a physical
body…and as long as you have a role to play on physical Earth...a minute
portion of a identity will be retained... but all of you are ready now
to move towards the dissolving of your personal identities...to the bare
minimum that you require in the now...
So see
yourselves now as a dot...a micro… nano…dot...that is all that is retained of
your personal identities...around that dot is the cosmic play...the cosmic
play...events and deeds... is
isness...there is no even…I...AS I MEANS ANOTHER...OTHERWISE WHERE… I? YOU HAVE GONE FROM IAM… INTO
AM NESS...INTO ISNESS...
And so
it is...and so it is...and so it is.
No hooks to hang your hats on…
Bliss...
You may
start opening your eyes...you may feel lighter...you may feel a sense of
freedom… having broken through...nita it was important that you were here for
this...it is a barrier you have flailed against many lifetimes...bowing has
happened...but none of us are bowing...Shaila ... ARTICLE FORMAT
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