Dearest all,

Read this beyond the words…. Read this beyond the words… they are only pointers, symbols if you like, trying to express the inexpressible…

We wonder why existence? Why life? Why pain and problems? But just think what ‘That’ must be- to eternally and infinitesimally WILL to be!   We cannot even conjure…and perhaps, perhaps catch but a glimpse when we view every beautiful scene, experience, relationship…we have ever experienced….! Perhaps in what we have found penultimate beauty -we may catch a glimpse why…! (And in the simpler context: when I hug my dog, I feel wow, how lovely to have become man and dog and enjoy the love so tangibly)

And imagine as Shiva- as that ‘I’- ‘awareness’- I am always experiencing each and every aspect of this beauty, glory, love, wisdom, power, creativity…(Shakti) call it what you may…and in a multi focus! Together! At once! I am immersed in it- drunk in it….And so where is the ‘not good’-ugly –pain- problem…when I am so focused on all this splendor! Think in analogies, take it off the academic blackboard, think how the sexual act, is focused on the love, joy, bliss and union… not on the abrasion of ‘two’ bodies….!

And each of us- always retains that focus- of course in deep sleep- but even when awake we are connected to all of this ‘unconsciously’…. every moment …or we would not live for even a fraction of a moment! We truly ‘pulsate’ out of this in nano-split seconds (kshan) to enjoy life…but this joy and bliss is the bed from where we pulsate ‘out’ so to say…and Into which we ‘rest’, kshan to kshan… (nanosecond to nano second) for we carry this deeply encoded within us ,in our very DNA!

Think in analogy-when u are playing a game- snakes and ladders, opponents, the dice of destiny, choices on the board…you know you are Divyaa and at home with beloveds…and in that knowingness and joy however much your focus may be on the ups and downs and challenges of the game ( or movie, or book) how ever deeply engrossed you may be in that ‘tension’ -a part of you KNOWS who, where, what you are and thus enjoys thoroughly the whole process…   And like that we are we always always poised in existence!

The trick is to become more and more aware! To expand the focus from game, book, movie…. Life indeed… inwards to this continued joy, bliss, love, resting motion! To that knowing-(and that’s truly what we are doing through these classes and sessions and reading) and to that feeling (through meditations and life)! And thus as we expand our focus from the single pointed focus uni –focus of outer day to day life – to the vaster multi- focus inside…as we encompass more and more of what we truly are (meditation aids) we can remain simultaneously   in both (and more) focuses and life becomes a 24/7 joyous experience like the game, or movie or book!  This this multi focus is our true beingness, expanded ‘back’ to being Shiva- engrossed in viewing existence itself on his million computer screens…which he channels surfs moment to moment to enjoy all!

So yes, we have willfully chosen a single finely honed focus through what we call physical life-like when we choose to go to movie or game and ‘switch of” our ‘larger self’ so to say… so that we may get all out of that experience/book/game/movie! Otherwise its like going to movie and having your cell on: and your home, servants, kids ‘on’ through the movie…like having your laptop with you and doing office work during the movie…! No we choose to disconnect’ from them partially- to enjoy the movie wholly!? And so we do for each life!  But just like this analogy - however much you may disconnect to focus on the movie-you always always always know the rest of you! When the movie or book is very gory- however sad you may feel- because ‘you’ are ‘you’ in real life and not the movie however engrossing it may be… you do not wholly suffer in that! You do not think going to the movie with beloveds was a painful experience! What sorrow you will ask- that was only in the movie! And I thoroughly enjoyed the movie! And thus, if switch or more accurately expand your focus now to the REAL you … to the witness…  inside who is drunk in the joy and bliss who he/she is…will you truly understand why creation! Why life! Why no pain and sorrow but the joy of beingness! 

And you can’t say: I am in pain because I have the veils and have forgotten who I am and how silly, why this game?  You have NOT FORGOTTEN-YOU CANNOT INDEED! How do I say this, for there are no words:  its part of the game to think you have forgotten! But you have not or you wouldn’t live for a fraction! On any realm! Leave alone the physical game!  It’s like saying but what if I forgot in the movie, I am Divyaa? What if I forgot in the game, we are best friends….you cant! You don’t! You designed it that way! Oh you may get swept away….but that’s part of why you chose that movie or book or game- ….! But you always know….! Right? And life is the game, movie, book of physical earth experience - a more intense movie or book than others, yes, but, which is why you chose it …for it is a blockbuster big hit best seller!! In others realms it may not be so ‘engrossing … you may not forget your real self quite so much… it may not be quite as intense either… and yes- that has its own joy- just like we need restful books or music programs too! But then we really want to sink our teeth into a big juicy one

And imagine the Love, the Will, the creative intelligence … imagine…how much… how much…to want to play this game… just to be each and everything I can!!! Imagine the confidence! Will you go for a movie if you were told you would forget self- aha- it would depend on yr confidence! Many will say yes what fun- like the roller-coaster rides….! But do you go to an amusement park for sorrow and pain or do you indeed know that challenge is part of its over all joy!

And further- when the game, ,book or amusement park event is over- the overall experience that is stored… retained is the fun, love, learning, camaraderie etc what you gained from the movie etc…not each scene or throw of the dice! The sum essence is only positive! And thus as Shiva: we experience no thing other than that fulfillment! No words, no words dearest friends can take us here so please use these words to take you beyond words to the essence.  

Even your causal bodies - souls- don’t know pain… problems… there is no thing like that! For this part of you…only stores the sum total: the joy, bliss, love, wisdom…! Its like carrying the pain of a death scene (or the tension of your friend putting you in jail during monopoly) around with you after the game or movie! (And ha- when do you do this? only when you get so involved in the movie or game that you forget yourself …! And yet; yet you never wholly forget and die in the movie hall or murder your friend!!)  And if you are carrying this pain around after the game or movie, what do you need to do?  Only switch your focus back to the ‘real’ you- and there IS NO PAIN or anger left!! Hey presto! What pain? For the death didn’t happen! For the friend didn’t put you into jail! It wasn’t! It wasn’t! It didn’t happen! It was only a beautiful experience with friends and popcorn and a dinner thereafter to extend the outing even more …!

And why did Divyaa CHOOSE to go to a movie with death scenes and pain- because it isn’t- it isn’t ‘real’-it isn’t- it doesn’t matter-I KNOW THAT! It is indeed encoded in my very DNA!!! INTACT WITHIN ME! And so do I joyfully go!

No words….