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No hooks to hang your hats on – 08-04-2008
(Divyaa laughing & chuckling in merriment)
Of course the energies present today are of only play- you can call it
laughter, you can call it stillness, you can call it a deeeeep chuckle, arising
from deep within; building and building and building on itself and bursting OUT
– as laughter, as love, as joy, as bliss, as Beingness, as Isness.
What cause and effect beloveds in laughter...? What cause and effect... every
muscle... is impacting every muscle...
It sets off a chain reaction, everyone starts to laugh or smile or
chuckle. Isness... Being... Happening...
(Divyaa laughing)
It’s Very difficult to come into words in this state of beingness. And yet when I sat in my morning meditation for
today, I was guided, that as a group you are not ready only for pure laughter
and silence. So we shall give you some
words, to amuse you, entertain you. Do
not see anything deep into them, they mean nothing at all! (Divyaa chuckling)
Hear them like different notes of music... that just make you feel... !!
So come, conjure... a burst of light (Divyaa snapping her hands), a burst of
Being, a burst of happening, a burst of what you call bliss, because a bliss is
beyond good or bad, right or wrong, cause and effect. (Divyaa snapping her
hands continuously) Conjure this burst – a burst of Light, a burst of Isness, Happening,
Bliss, beyond all cause and effect.
(Pause)
And yet now, take it off the abstract; take it off the abstract, see this
(Divyaa snapping her hands) burst! Hear the sound! See in front of you, in the centre of this
circle, a carrom board. And hear that
burst of the striker, hitting the centre and bursting all those counters into
the dynamic play of the game! (Divyaa snapping her hands) Yes, the game has
begun, feel that adrenalin, feel the rush, feel the joy… feel what cause…what effect… in a game … but
the pure... joy of being…! And as the
striker hits the centre, the so called egg, the so called potential of the
game, it bursts into... being! (Divyaa
snapping her hands continuously) It bursts into ... happening, it bursts
into... laughter, joy, screaming, shouting, and the up and down of the game! Feel that joy, feel that rush, FEEL... how
cause-less... is this beginning (Divyaa snapping her hands continuously), is
this burst, is this Big-bang... Light.
And understand that as in your carrom game, it is only THAT striker that hits
again and again and an again, at the various counters- It is the One will to
be, the One desire that permeates the entire game. Allow this to resonate in you, beyond words- that One striker, the One will, the One desire...
hitting against the ‘counters’, keeping the game alive – moment to moment to
moment. And yet only this One will pervading
the entire game, through the One striker. And of course, the egg that it broke
open- the many, many counters... in the centre of the so called board- is the
potential which was burst open. And yet
each counter looks like another, can you make out the difference? Of course
not! One looks like the other, once they’ve begun the game, once they are in the
play, you do not know, which counter is which! And yet, they are all in
play. And in the same way... all...
aspects, facets, qualities... are just coming into being, are coming into play,
and are mixing, blending in a different permutations and combinations like
these many counters do! So that in every
permutation, every combination, every happening, every mixing, every blending,
every going-away, they ‘become’ forever afresh, always, always, only through
that one striker - the One Will, the ‘One’ Desire. Yes, of course... the
counters are of two colours... black and white, male and female, yin and yang,
left brain and right brain... Because for this game to come into being, these
to aspects... must... be...
And therefore again conjure in your energy fields the Big-bang, (Divyaa
snapping her hands) the burst, the light, the coming into being... Joy, Bliss,
Isness, Happening.
And now again view this in more tangible terms, through the carrom, the striker
hitting the centre, the All Potential... all counters only being different
aspects, different facets, different qualities inherent within …you cannot make
out one from the other, when they are in the game. And yet as the game begins, as the counter is
struck, they mix and blend and match and whizz all over the board, in
different, different combinations, different, different permutations, different
counters coming together, different counters going away, you can never know –
which and what and why; where is the cause and where is the effect! Try, try,
we challenge you, to go into a game, and experience or follow, cause and effect
within it.
And see this game of carrom build up and build up and build up, see it like a
dynamic universal board, not a static 3D board, a dynamic board – the very
Universe – different aspects, different facets, different qualities, coming
together, bursting apart, making new combinations, the game is on! And yet you can never trace back, never! Which counter hits when, why, what, how... which
being…which you or him or event or action or quality affects what…! What cause…what
effect!?
And yet, go deeper, not only can you not trace, which counter hits which
counter to ricochet, but which was the cause and which was the effect. Truly, surely, what you have called the
effect, was the cause... The effect that you experienced in the game was the cause,
beloveds! To experience that Joy, to experience that bonhomie, to experience
that togetherness. And therefore if you
quite see, what you have called the effect has become the cause and therefore
there are only causes and causes and causes, no effects whatsoever! See this in your real life too, what you call
the effect of anything, is truly the cause.
You choose to lea...rn something, experience something, expand
something, disempower something. And so
a so called ‘cause’ comes in... as a person, event, thing. A cause... for a cause, for a cause, for a
cause, for a cause, for a cause, for a cause...
Again, allow this ‘carrom’ game to play itself out, in your energy fields. But allow that centre egg to be: All That Is,
Potential, and Void, whatever you choose to call it. And see it (Divyaa
snapping her hands) coming alive as I AM... Light. And yet see... how those counters, which you
cannot make out, who is who- are whom you call ‘individuations’…!!! As different
Universes, worlds...and people…!
See it all come together, see it playing out, infinitely; infinitesimally...
till every counter on the board has merged with every counter and every
combination with every combination, it is infinite, beloveds, infinite! And
when that has happened (Divyaa snapping her hands), what you call that one
split second (Divyaa snapping her hands), existence itself, the game winds
up. But there was no cause, there was no
effect. You could never trace it in the game;
you could not even trace the for the reason for the game. (Divyaa chuckling)
No cause, no effect, no self, no hooks for you to hang your concepts on.
(Divyaa snapping her hands continuously).
And now take this into another game, another game, our favourite, favourite
game that we play with you so often – The Snakes and Ladders... All of you,
this group who are meditating, are playing Snakes and Ladders... and there is
only one desire, pervading all and that is the desire to play… be...! And there is only one experience pervading you
all, and that is the experience of play, Being... Isness...! And all of you become the various partners,
the various counters, the various games... Someone goes ‘up’ happy and someone
goes ‘down’ sad… and someone throws a dice, and you think it’s random, or you
think its cause and effect! And now you
are understanding that they are both, truly the same... The dice is flung and someone climbs up and
because someone climbs up, someone comes down, how can you trace it beloveds,
how can you trace it! And if you go deeper, the effect which you call the game
was truly the cause….
So once again, no cause, no effect, no you, no me; just the one desire, having
the one experience of Pure Being. (Divyaa chuckling) No hooks to hang your
concepts on... No hooks to hang your hats of truth on... (Divyaa snapping her
hands continuously)
And now take this even bigger, take it on to a cricket field, a world cup, many
teams, many players, the whole world participating, become part of that game,
that Happening, that Isness, that Beingness and see in that the One desire, the
One will, the One experience through so many, many facets, aspects, qualities
that you have called countries, teams, coaches, audience, players, bookies,
matters not! And once again try and view in that, where is the cause, where is
the effect? Which ball went where, which fielder caught it... can you see, in a
game, any cause and any effect? Who affects the game – the audience, who’s
spurring you on, or the audience who’s hackling you down, or was it the player
who impressed the audience or annoyed
them…or the coach who did a good job or
a bad job, or the manager who’ll know the right team or the bad team, or the
weather, or the state of the pitch! What cause, what effect are you ‘ll trying
to trace? Every factor is playing with every factor, purely for the one
happening... of the cricket game (Divyaa snapping her hands continuously),
Isness, Beingness, participation, Happening...
And so view beyond words …every event that has happened in the so called
cricket game or in your so called Snakes and Ladders or in your so called
carom, are like those bubbles... which you all experienced rising from deep
within. Those qualities, aspects,
choosing to be experienced and as they rise, rise, rise, rise, rise, rise... in this rising are all these events that you
are seeing, these people that you are seeing, this chain that you are seeing
and finally (Divyaa snapping her hands) the bubble fulfilled bursts and rests
and starts again. (Divyaa chuckling...)
No cause, no effect, everything rubbing against everything, every...thing
rubbing against every...thing. Where cause, where effect, who is who, who is
the coach, who is the player... who is the manager, who is the pitch... No... Hooks
are being left... to hang any hats on, or any concepts, any truths...
Allow this... silently, wordlessly to go through your energy fields...
Happening, Beingness, Isness, in its most... prosaic form: you have called
‘experience’.
Experience, Beingness, Happening, Isness;
Isness, Beingness, Happening, Experience;
Experiences, Beingness, Happening, Isness;
Allow this, no cause, no effect, no you, no me, no hook, no hat. And without the hook, no concepts, and
without the concepts no truths, and without the truths, all play (Divyaa
amused), no cause, no effect (Divyaa laughing...)
Yes, allow this laughter, this simplicity, this ‘energy’( only because we need
to give it a name, because is ness is beyond energy or cause) to permeate and permeate and permeate and
permea...te...
And even as it is working on your personal energy fields, see in the centre of
a circle a havan. A Havan-kund, with two
twigs, ghee being poured, the camphor being burnt, the havan coming alive!
Allow this havan to hold all... that you have called Personal Consciousness,
Universal Consciousness, truths, causes, effects, concepts! And allow it (Divyaa snapping her hands
continuously) to be the Big-bang, to be the striker of the carrom board, to be
the heads and tails throwing of the coin in the beginning of the Cricket match, to be the dice
which is flung in the Snakes and Ladders... all synonymous of THAT.
And as you are seeing this havan in front of you in the circle, you notice
enfolded in its twigs, enfolded is this diamond. . And as the havan burns and as the twigs burns
and the oil is poured and the flame is larger, the diamond remains sacrosanct,
untouched, unharmed, unaffected, doesn’t even know that there is a havan
on! That there are twigs, that there is
fire... that there is ghee... and it just remains there. And this is of course symbolic of each one...
of you, each one of you. The diamond, that is why known as the hardest aspect
known, nothing can impact it. (Divyaa snapping her hands).
Also See how a diamond twinkles and facets and shines its many, many colours,
its many, many glitters, its many, many... sparkles... Where cause, where
effect does the diamond know... Is the
sparkle the cause... or the effect? Why do you choose to enjoy a diamond?
(Divyaa snapping her hands)
So again be that diamond in that havan; see it being consumed with oil and ghee
and butter. See the flames rise and see
the twigs burn and become ember, see the diamond glow and glow and glow and
glow and become bigger and bigger and bigger and bigger and sturdier and
strength and the diamond is all there is.... Diamond-self... ....
Diamond-self... beyond concepts... Not
God, not Shiva, not Shakti, not I AM, not Void, not you, no me... Symbolic of That,
which the serpent holds, on the top of its crown, where words can’t take you...
words can’t take you... No hooks, concepts, no truths, no thoughts, no
feeling... Diamond... and its... facets, shimmering, shimmering, shimmering...
And before you apply a concept.. to your
Diamond…before you make it another symbolic concept…of all that we have
expressed
- See
it through the eyes of a geologist and he will call it carbon.
- See
it through the eyes of a gemology (gemologist) and he will give it another
description.
- View
it through quantum physics and you will be described through atoms and
molecules.
- Understand
it through geography and you will understand where it is mined
- Understand
it as an artist and it will take a different meaning all together.
- See
it as a jeweller; see it as the maker… or the customer… each time a different
view will you see it through! Every point of view changes the diamond. What diamond, which diamond?
Do not make a diamond …or Shiva or shakti or void or I Am… into a concept! No
truths, no concepts, nothing to hang your hats on...
(Divyaa letting out a chuckle) And (chuckles ) view the havan, who made that?
Where did the metal come from? Who was the metal-maker? Where is the cause? Who
was he born to? Why was he born to him? Where was the mother from? Where was
the father from? He was meant to be... a candle maker, but the candle maker...
died, so he could not learn candle-making and so he learnt metal-making, so he
created a havan! (chuckles) What cause, what effect are you trying to trace?!
Where did the twigs come from? Which woods? Which trees? Who planted these
trees? Why? When? Because the child wanted a fruit! Because a sage passed by
and he saw such a fruit…and the sage passed by because it was raining…What
cause and effect are you’ll are trying... to encompass...
Each of you sitting here, how have you come here, why do you come here? What
are your stories, how do you combine? How do you blend? How do you merge? If we
have to only trace this, it would take us an existence itself! And you would
not be able to...
Allow this... to burn away in the havan, allow it to permeate your energy
fields…No cause, no effects, all is just happening, Being, Isness, play, random
or everything connected. No you, no me,
no Personal Consciousness, no Void, no Shiva, no Shakti.., no diamond even...
do not make that into another concept!
Come come some more…you are like a
thread in a rich, rich tapestry; when you try and follow a cause and effect,
you trace this one-strand -and call it cause and effect, you call it your
beginning, you call it your end and you call it your Monad and your soul . And yet how can you be that
one thread when you are the very tapestry?! When you are the very tapestry;
when every thread interplays and inter-connects with you at every stage of that
tapestry! You are every strand yes and in that you are every process - whether
the cloth was dyed or spun or woven or cut! How did the cotton grow? In whose farm, in
whose soil? Why? How? How was the silk added to it? Where did the silk come
from? Which caterpillar...? And you try
and follow that one strand... as cause and effect??????? (Divyaa laughing out
loud and snapping her hands) Existence, Isness, Happening, Being, play...
So yes, ‘God’ threw the dice! And humanity hates that idea, but which God, but
you, and threw the dice but to play in abandon…and why not, why not? What is
the fear? What is the discomfort? Why must there be a rea..son? Why must there
be... order? Why must there be... cause and effect? Why must there be learning?
Why must there be growing?
(Divyaa snapping her hands) Play, striker hitting the carom board, the dice
being flung on the snakes and ladders, the coin being thrown – heads or tails
in the cricket match... no reason... no cause, no effect, no you, no me, no
God, no... nothing. No concepts and truths to hang you hats on! No hooks! No
hats!
(MUSIC STARTS...)
Allow this to resonate through your energy fields...(Divyaa
chuckling) 100 causes, 100 effects, a million …zillion causes or a million zillion
effects, everything rubbing against everything, no cause, no effect, perfect
order, perfect random. See every atom, every molecule, every cell, in your body
reverberate, dance, come alive,
Do …Be…the Sufi – whirling, swirling; no
reason... no cause... Which dancer? Who... in that circle?
Dance... our Being, Isness! The World card (in Tarot), Natraj – in a dance,
what cause, what effect, what reason? Whose
dance? – the dancers? chorographers? musicians? the audience? Where, can you define, separate... (Divyaa
chuckling)
Visualise your energy fields, beloveds! The Crown chakra, a 1000 petals,
glorious, shining. 1000 petals – symbolic of... the nameless, the infinite, the
infinitesimal, every aspect, every shade, shining, glittering, combining,
blending, merging, uniting afresh again a new combination, a new happening, a
new coming, a new separation. This as your Crown chakras – a 1000 petals, a
1000 shades, symbolic of a number that you have no number for. See its facets, see its glitters, see its
glimmers, shine on you, fall on you,
fall on your energy fields, fall on your atoms, molecules, cells, DNA, blood
stream, organs. See this crown chakra
and its multi, multi, multi facets flood you, permeate you, soak you, drench
you. What cause, what effect, drenched as you are in the rain, of your own
Crown chakra – permeating, pouring, drenching... ha....
See the group, the circle, the room adrench with one crown chakra. 1000 petals, 1000 colours, 1000 blending,
merging, coming, separating, uniting, glimmering, shining.
Allow this Isness... Being... Happening... Experience... play... no cause, no
effect... no you, no me... (music ends...)
And then in front of each one of you, are a pair of eyes, a pair of eyes, two
pin-pricks... Babaji! Babaji in front of you, two pin-pricks, eyes, in front of
you, looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes and you are looking into
his eyes and you’re getting sucked in, drawn in, merging, you and he and this
one, energy field, blending, merging!
And even as you dissolve and you merge and dissolve and become and
aspect of him, as you become Babaji, you look and you realise there was no ‘you’
to dissolve in the first place and you laugh and you laugh! At this illusion...
of the blending, of the merging, of the dissolving... because having dissolved…
And you look at your current self and you know that it does not exist. Who dissolved into whom, to where, you are
one with Babaji, you’re in his so called body, his energy fields. He’s laughing, he’s playing, he’s dancing...
he is being Isness... play’s, chuckling, deep, deep, DEEP chuckle from the very
gut, of what we symbolically call Babaji... and that is you coming forth,
bursting out, bursting out.
You have forgotten what is Personal Consciousness, what is Universal, what is I
AM, Shiva, void, nothing, no label exists, no concepts, no truths, nothing but
this one ... Isness.
(SECOND MUSIC STARTS...)
How restful... is play...? How fulfilled is play... in every
moment? And in thisss... existence bows
to existence itself...
No Babaji, nothing... he’s only a tool to take you into... this thankfulness,
reverence, or Being... Isness... Rest...
through fulfilment, bliss, bliss... Beyond good and bad and you and me.
Release your tears ( to someone present) do not hold back, what cause, what
effect, what is being played out. Allow
all...
(Music is stopped) This is rest... play
is rest and what you have called rest is not.
No concepts, no truths, no cause, no effect, no labels, no hooks, no hooks so
no hats, no hats... no thing.
Neti... neti.... neti... neti...It is... It is.
Neti... neti... It is... It is.
Neti... neti... It is... It is.
Neti... neti... It is... It is.
Neti... neti... It is... It is. Not two opposites...
synonyms. Neti... netiii...... It is...
It issss.
Go forth into your days beloveds, and do this on a moment to moment. The bus is passing, you are passing, which is
the cause? Which is the effect? Why is the cat there? Why did the crow
fly...? Why did the signal stop? What
cause? What effect?
Tune into being the city, each aspect sashaying, rubbing, playing up against each
aspect; each aspect twinkling forth to each aspect. The tree thinks it is
looking at you, and you think you are looking at the tree. The bus thinks its passing you and you think
you are standing for the bus to pass. A
crow is flying and drops a feather... the feather came from a chicken, the
chicken from Louisiana, Louisiana... we can go on and on and on and on...
Live in this dynamically, through your conscious minds...
(LONG PAUSE)
And end today’s meditation in a celebration-
a party of Being, Happening- And
so it is... and so it is... and so it
is... There are sounds coming, there are drums being played, you can hear the flutes,
you can see fire and flame, you can hear sounds, you can hear glasses being
tinkled. You’re in a forest its dark, there’s wilderness, there’s an event,
there’s a celebration, there’s a party happening. You don’t know where this place is, it’s not
familiar. There are beloveds, there are strangers, everybody’s blending and
mingling and dancing and singing and jostling.
The music is playing different, different notes; you’ve never heard them
before – drums... wild, flutes unheard... Natives... you’ve never been here
before and yet the moment you pass that one moment... of... newness, you enter
the party, the celebration, the happening.
It doesn’t matter that you’ve never been here. It’s strange, its dark, the music is
new. You don’t know everybody and
matters not!
And everybody has a glass in their hands a chalice of course, made of gold or
silver or diamond, that matters... not...
And in that bubbling, jostling, flowing, is the spirit of life, desire,
the One will to be, happening, Isness...
no reason, no cause.
And you’re drinking, you’re pouring, you’re drenching, you’re soaking, you’re
drunk, you’re high. You’re dancing, you’re
revelling, eyes are meeting, you’re dancing with everybody, you’re dancing with
nobody. It’s the dance itself which is
dancing. Your eyes are closed, you don’t
know where you are, you don’t know with who.
The spirit is pouring over you, you’re dancing... and dancing... and
dancing, what cause? What effect? Who is who? Who is who?
This is life, this is not this exotic dance in some unknown place, the party is
here in your homes, in your lives, in your careers, in day to day roles, in
your buses, in your taxis, in your cars, in your careers, in your jobs. You’re jostling, you’re blending, you’re
mixing. Events are happening, people are
coming together, separating, mixing, learning, growing, it matters not! The bus
is passing, the bird is flying...
No cause, no effect... all is happening.
And yet (Divyaa chuckling) it is happening to no one.
(THIRD MUSIC IS PLAYED)
(Divyaa bursting into laughter) Maya... and
you’re looking for cause and effect in Maya...
Dance beloveds, dance, allow your energy fields to dance, allow your hands to sway...
Let there be no... nothing to restrain and nothing to restrain...
The bubble is rising from deep within… and higher and higher and higher and
higher …and bursting and rising afresh and higher and higher and higher and
bursting…..! (Divyaa snapping her hands continuously) The carrom striker, the
dice is flung, heads or tails, the Big-bang, Maya, no reason, all play...
Slowly come back into normal consciousness ….and yet, never again!
Truly play the game of Maya now... with abandon
(Music end- long Silence) (Divyaa chuckling softly)
There used to be an English quote that I had written in my college days... a
smile that couldn’t help but slide off... your face, that’s what I’m feeling… you are all looking like….!
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