With each thought, desire and breath
we are constantly praying.

What God are you honoring
with your attention?

Dearest all, This is a beautiful quote
and can be viewed at many levels!

Simply put, what you pay attention to
is what you give life to;
what you pay attention to is
what you attract!
Become aware of your 24/7
thoughts, desires,
and know what you are choosing to experience as 'life'!
Know it is your attention, which is the God who ordains thus.

At a deeper level
Are you focusing on current self and its issues
or higher self and its beingness.
Let me use another quote to unravel this further:

The wonderful thing about saints is that they were human… they lost their tempers, got hungry, scolded god and cursed sometimes, were egotistical, or testy or impatient in turns, made mistakes, still they went on doggedly blundering toward heaven
Phyllis McGinley

Because even as we are in the process of establishing self in Higher Self Beingness , the current self will continue to have some of its drama's , issues,energy knots
But by firmly. unequivocally. determinedly.  knowing, honoring, focusing on  Higher self and its equanimity
will it automatically lead to dissolution of the various energy knots of the current self!
And as one gets firmer and firmer established in Self
the current selves issues and drama's will not matter!
and in that, without an audience or a self to honor them....will they die a natural death!

This is the path of Tantra! or Sufi! or Zen!
The knowing/clear vision/ gnosis.... not  intellectual understanding....that current self and all its 'issues, energy knots, karma, learning, strenthgs, weaknesses' , call it what you may
are but part of the game!
or the movie script!
And you are the lead actor not the role you are playing!
So as 'shah rukh khan' (only an analogy pls) would you indeed bother about issues of rejection if your role played a forlorn rejected 'devdas' self in the movie?
Would you trace his...devdas roles... history? try to resolve this characters many personality issues?
Indeed if as shah rukh khan you did do that...focus on the character you were playing you would move from the joy of being shar rukh to the angst of being devdas !
Indeed if you did that, not only would issues of rejection become apparent but even as you solved ,say devdas's rejection issues some other would come...and others...and others till you realize oh my god I am shah rukh khan... and leave your pre occupation with being devdas...and thus would you not give devdas your attention ...and life force!

But yes, if you feel drawn to the characters (current self) issues and feel drawn to working on them  and their resoltuion
then dont short cut the process!
As long as you are still playing that game/role to whatever minutest of degree
its ( and the resolution you are drawn to) still got some purpose... in the larger scheme;
thus are 'you' (as 'devdas') still there; and  thus still drawn to that stage of beingness!
and as it sputters out... when you as conscioussness chooses
will you move more and more wholly into 'Shah rukh khan' self...

Yes this is only an analogy so don't get stuck in its details
and I paste an older mail I sent you all
....automatically I found it sitting in my inbox today, sent back to me by a list member in reference to some discussion!!!
ha ha!

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Hi all, thanks for the positive feedback ...and many questions

As I cant address each question personally (via mail)let me sum up the main line of questioning which was : how does one know one isn't fooling oneself whilst allowing current self to be and do what it does? isn't that a cop out? aren't we fooling self? isn't that convenient way out... etc etc?

The answer is simple! As long as this awareness of not being current self is just an intellectual understanding, as long as one is still part of the game/role...  as long as the transformation from current to larger self is not complete..... the question will arise! Because current self asks it! In analogy, or once you awake from the dream, you will not ask is it a cop out to not change the dream self or do resolution with the person you fought with in yr dream! Once AWAKE... you KNOW the dream self and its experiences don't exist !

So yes as long as the questions arise..." how does one know one isn't fooling oneself whilst allowing current self to be and do what it does? isn't that a cop out? aren't we fooling self? isn't that convenient way out... etc " one hasn't fully awakened from the dream of current self. But its  ok... indeed natural for these questions to arise... because This Larger Awakening is a process... and as the awakening is happening...these questions will become less, further apart....till you are fully awake...and the question cant arise! It will feel  as foolish as asking what does my dreaming self want to  wear today! What move does that self who was playing snakes and ladders last week or last month or last year....want to make next on the board....!! The board......the game has wound up... the players disbanded...and the question cant arise!!

So yes, as long as issues, feelings,  anger etc  arise, you do not suppress, or deny them... but use it to know that "ah areas within are still asleep... or playing the game or acting in the movie..."  and in that conscious awareness you instantly move to witness... Higher Self... ! Indeed in becoming aware of them, and  not suppressing them, do you allow them to come to the surface and play themselves out...! Indeed in becoming aware of them, and  not suppressing them...do you operate as Higher self and not current self! Visually view this as  the Light of the Higher self shining on the current selves dark theatre bringing that particular scene to an end!   (But the word used is becoming 'aware' of them... lightly giving them your attention-  not focusing on them overly ...as in that you  will give the ego self more life!)

And yes, still our 'basic' knowledge plays out -remains the core- because as current self, whatever resolution you are seeking with   'others'... is about at-one-ment with issues within self! The other is only a tool through whom you resolve the energy knots within. The other is only a projection/mirror in which you find an external point to view/deal with the internal energy knots. The other is only symbolic, to help you touch whatever it is within. And that is fine too, using our tools- the others- balancing out relationships-that's why they are there; yet in the deeper awareness that its all about -  unresolved areas- feelings, thoughts, desires, fears , anger, guilt -within. Then at some point you do it more and more within... it does not matter who the outside person is... you become a universe unto itself;  it does not matter if it is this life or past life issues you only become aware ...ah current self drama has blinked on.; and in this awareness, automatically, over time....

Yes p - this is a subject better explored face to face than through writing; and yet you touched so many core points that you can take it further even long distance!!SOME QUOTES ON THE SUBJECT TO TRIGGER THIS OFF:

What is this basic delusion? Identification with thought. Spiritual awakening is awakening from the dream of thought-Echkart Tolle

Why aren't you happy? It's because ninety-nine percent of everything you do, and think, and say, is for yourself -- and there isn't one." Wu Wei Wu

"Most people, even though they don't know it, are asleep. ... They never understand the loveliness and the beauty of this thing that we call human existence." -- Father Anthony de Mello

Only when one awakens
can he tell of his dreams.
Be still, and let the dream come,
so it may fade away.
This is the way of freedom from karma
on the path of meditation.

To: Divyaadailymail
Sent: Tuesday, March 17, 2009 11:16 PM
Subject: 29-9-2008-AN ABSTRACT- SIMPLY PUT- THERE IS NO EGOSELF!

Beloved friends,

As The Presence of SELF becomes more and more tangible.... as the illusion of our current identity dissolves...There are two approaches to this:One where you focus on removing the  illusionary self; and the other where you focus on being the Larger Self.

Both work:  both are required at different points- both require a initial stage of 'KNOW THYSELF'- So  the first step is awareness!

Awareness of  both the current self/personality/ego and its desires fears conditioning etc
and
knowing the Larger Self, (universe, energy, consciousness) and its Love, equanmity, bliss That you inherently are.

In this the current self automatically yearns to dissolve into its higher beingness rather than fight to remain inviolate!And in tasting True Authentic self... it willfully continues to dissolve into that Presence...and as the Presence takes over it does the rest of the work automatically!

Yet ultimately it is focus on the True Larger Self that is required...as it is from being established in this end of the continuum that- it happens! This is the path of TANTRA!Whereas excess focus on working with the illusionary ego self and its issues at this point...only gives it more life! You focus so much on 'your' issues and personality and root causes... whether from this life or another... that  you focus so much on the 'you'! And the whole point is it doesn't exist!!! But by delving into it you give it life and make it more and more real!! 

In analogy it is like psychoanalyzing a  problematic dream self on a joyous day ...why 'she' did this; what 'she' thinks; what are 'her' issues; what is 'her' past!!! But once you awake you wouldn't spend time on 'her'...knowing 'she' doesn't exist!! You will be to alive to the joy of your day!! Indeed ...your focus on the dreaming self and her issues would needlessly  bring an illusionary event into your life!!!

Change the analogy to that self which has played a robust game of  snakes and ladders and is now moving onto a joyous joyous joyously full day ; how long would you spend in understanding, delving, psychoanalyzing why you came across the snakes;why the dice threw what it did? it wouldn't matter! you know it was a game with its inherent pits and highs!you know you wouldn't have played it if there were no snakes in a snakes and ladder game ...or you knew every throw of the dice...or had no opponent!!you would not spend time on wondering why the dice was so erratic; or why your opponent wanted to thrash you...!

Go beyond the words...at these levels words must be allowed to fall through the fine mesh of your deeper understanding... so that their sum essence touches you beyond intellectual understanding!Allow that awakening to gently fall deep within where words cant go...

Love from my heart to yours
Divyaa Kummar
Website:www.Divyaakummar.com
Email; Divyaakummar@Divyaakummar.com
Do not feed your ego and your problems, with your attention. ...Slowly, surely, the ego will lose weight, until one fine day it will be nothing but a thin ghost of its former self. You will be able to see right through it, to the divine presence that shines in each of us."  Eknath Easwaran