THE TREMOR, THE KUNDALANI OF UNCONCIOUSSNESS RISING, THE ONE SPLIT MOMENT, EXISTENCE BEING!

17-06-08

Feel this ... feel this spasm going through you... this ... bliss...; this Ahh...; cannot be described... cannot be described... a tremor that goes through you... 

Think of yourself just sitting.... somewhere beautiful... thinking of nothing... doing nothing... and this beautiful tremor of ah... just goes through… shoots up you... and you feel... so good... you don’t know why... You don’t know what it’s about... and yet it feels so good... there was no reason... it didn’t require one...

Each of you... allow this to happen in you...now. Think of yourself on a summer’s day... the breeze blowing... just feeling... Ahhhhh... feel that tremor... feel that pulsation... don’t let these be empty words. Tap into a moment when you experienced thus!

And understand... That this is how... or why... non- consciousness prior to consciousness (What you call darkness... because there is no color) This is… all That happened... this is all That happened… within it...

One tremor...

You can call it love... you can call it the bliss of just being...

The bliss, not joy, because joy has happiness and unhappiness in it... is bound up with some cause…

But just the bliss of being...

That which you experienced just now... before we started...

That… tremor... That love of all that it is... the bliss... This was the so called ‘movement’ within unconsciousness...  the only movement actually ... much like a pulsation that goes through you  when you are feeling good; and this tremor.. .love... bliss... movement... pulsation... is what you all have called the first vibration; which then you call... sound...yin...female...Shakti...

Allow this to rise up you...it can either rise like an orgasm...or like you spontaneously feel on a beautiful summer’s day with a beautiful breeze blowing... you are feeling good... and something...subtly... subtly...just rises in you... for that split second... split second... you feel love...you feel bliss...you feel that vibration...that pulsation... you seek not to know it...you seek not to understand it...you just feel...

This is in linear terms...what happened in unconsciousness prior to consciousness... (Divyaa makes a sound of one clap). Just one tremor...of love...of bliss...the pulsation...the vibration...

Almost...beloveds listen to this carefully... Almost like the kundalini of unconsciousness rising within it... rising up its ‘chakra’s’...bringing ‘to light’ every ‘chakra’ (symbolically) along the way ...till all bursts into light... at the so-called third eye of unconsciousness... into consciousness!

We shall repeat this; this tremor which you all experienced as we sat... call it love ...bliss... the movement of pulsation... vibration... Shakti... was actually that split moment; that one tremor; that kundalani rising... of unconsciousness prior to consciousness (within what you call darkness.)  And as it rose, it brought to life, All That It Is... what it was in love with... what there was to in-joy... and when all became light... you would say consciousness ‘happened’... the kundalani of unconsciousness had risen...! And yet the split second... from unconsciousness and ‘darkness’... to complete consciousness and light... happened chakra by chakra... levels of its being ness… like it does in yours...!

Of course this is repeated in your physical worlds; unconsciousness experiences itself... brings itself to  life as degrees of  consciousness…  first  as matter …stone... as plant... as animal...  as humans... and higher aspects you call masters and gods and higher realms …. Yet this is that same split second of the kundalini rising within unconsciousness... view it going up, lighting, bringing to life All That Is within…

And now once again experience this as the kundalini arising in unconsciousness... spontaneously for no reason... no reason at all... and as this kundalini ‘arose’ because we must speak in linear terms ... as it went up each chakra so to say... it brought to life... awareness of… all that it is… And in that awareness, arose or is , the  love for All That It Is… and the bliss of being All That It Is!!! And when all was ‘light’ … consciousness... when there was complete awareness of all it is, of all that the tremor ‘was’ about… it was able ‘to know and enjoy and love ’ all that it ‘was’ spontaneously in That moment; as unconsciousness prior to consciousness! And ‘this awareness’ of ‘that’ moment is what you call love... bliss...!

And yet become aware it was that tremor of delight… movement... pulsation... the vibration... sound... yin... Shakti… (Call it what you may) that brought consciousness to life…! Created light! The awareness and stillness to experience itaelf! That is why...  it has been said... that sound created light... That is why your bible says God says “let there be light”!

Because as this pulsation …movement…vibration (precursor of sound) ... shot up so to say... and ‘up’... and ‘up’... at every ‘chakra’ (symbolic of levels of its being ness) was light created... unconsciousness came into being consciousness… spontaneously…no reason! And light is what you call Shiva, awareness, time & space... in which to view itself; in which thus ‘love’ happens...Love is; in which to view this bliss.... And therefore is! Light- Shiva… time and space … awareness... stillness; the stillness in which... this movement and pulsation could feel itself!  Understand this deeply somewhere-Awareness - Shiva , light, yang... is the stillness in which this pulsation can be felt; In which this movement can occur... Shakti can dance…

So once again... be the unconscious darkness prior to conscious... feel the tremor... arise within it... shooting its way up... shooting its way ‘up’... shooting its way in all ‘directions’... bringing alive All That It Is... lighting up… bringing to life all that is in the unconscious, darkness…. and suddenly there is only light... and light... and light...

And in this light- consciousness - there is awareness, of why this tremor arose...

And once it is aware... of why the tremor arose...

Of what there is to love... is there love and loving it all, every nuance and aspect…

Of What is the bliss about... is their joy and experiencing it all, every nuance and aspect…

And Once that is ‘done’... fulfilled…all experienced all fulfilled

The ‘light’ subsides... the light abides back...

Light has no more reason to be...

For completely fulfilled...

It subsides... and subsides... and subsides... and subsides...

Ping ping ping pinging out…

Back into unconsciousness prior to consciousness... so called ‘darkness’...

From which it will again rise...

From this newer high or self that it became through that one tremor of being itself!

Understand that... actually Awareness is not the same as consciousness... Awareness is pure light... stillness... yang... Shiva. That which contains the movement; movement can only be experienced, viewed in stillness surely? And consciousness, which you all refer to as the same as awareness, is actually a blend of sound and light... Shiva and Shakti... stillness and movement... heart and mind... that tremor and its knowledge and wisdom- Love!

That is consciousness! and this plays out in every atom... every molecule... every cell  in your entire universe… there is  a  nuclei... a center point... which is the yin... sound...unconsciousness; and  around it is the light... in which that can experience itself.

It makes up your bodies... it makes up everything that you call matter...

Now we will do it through one of our analogies… so come see yourself as this dark... beautiful pool of water... You are the pool... darkness or deep indigo blue (as in non color)... just lapping... within yourself...

Unconsciousness prior to consciousness... prior to light... just being... the laps of the water... against itself…caressing …

And in this pool arises... That tremor... That kundalini... That love... That joy

Be that pool... see this tremor arise... and what will happen when this tremor arises... in the pool...there is created a bubble... which becomes bigger... and bigger... and bigger... and bigger... and bigger... and then bursts...

This bubble is the light...

This bubble is awareness...

This bubble is what allows that tremor to know itself!

 Now think... of a bottle of liquid... that you turn upside down...

And a bubble arises...  actually is there anything like that bubble ?

It is only a vacuum...  it is only a vacuum...

Which disappears as the bottle is uprighted so to say…

And therefore be this pool of water again (that you are now analogically as unconsciousness...)… repeat this for it is working deeply within your energy fields..

You are just the pool....

Prior to consciousness...

Unconsciousness...

Nothingness...

Lapping...

Enjoying...

Just being...

And within that tremor arises...

What reason... none what so ever...

Just the pure bliss of being... all that you already are

-And that is the only movement that ever takes place...beloved... that is the only movement that ever takes place... this one pulsating vibration...

-And in this arises what you call the fabric of existence, love... of all that you are...and wanting to explore, revel in, experience …love…every nuance of this being ness.

-And fulfilled abides back... into being that pool...but the pool is forever changed... the pool forever enhanced...

And now we will go back to what some of you have already done; and yet you will re experience it in deeper ways. You are the dark... non consciousness prior to consciousness... nothingness... and in this nothingness, when this tremor arises, in bliss of itself... no reason….spontaneously…

-And ...ping... ping... ping... ping... ping... See the light appearing, blinking into being… see lights sparkling... and as pixels of light appear... some darkness disappears... and then there is more light... and more light... and more light... and more light... and darkness non light receding naturally….as awareness of all that I AM...awareness of the love... awareness of the bliss... all knowing... is filling up instead…

- But of course... and every time a critical mass of ‘light has come on’... in unconsciousness it has become aware of one level of its being ness, in your terms reached one chakra....(And thus the same goes for ‘you’… when critical mass of light, consciousness, awareness happens in ‘you’ … you have reached one chakra... within your unconsciousness...)

-And suddenly there is only light... and only light...  because light has given life to all That ‘nothingness’, prior to consciousness, source indeed.  And this light...now All That Is... is enjoying being all that it is... enjoying experiencing all that it is... enjoying the love it has become aware of... enjoying, exploring, experiencing ,loving, knowing

Every aspect...

Every nuance...

Every quality...

Every individuation...

Every merger...

Everything...

And when completely... completely fulfilled...

When it has known all...

When it has experienced all...

When it has enjoyed all...

Loved itself wholly and completely

When there is nothing left...

It goes...

Ping... ping... ping... ping...pinging out this time …Back into darkness (as non light);

-And so beloveds, as every aspect of consciousness... as ‘you’, and ‘me’ and a ‘Nita’... a ‘Anju’... a ‘Hamsi’... a ‘Divyaa’... fulfill their reason to be...

 -Light... consciousness... ‘You’

-Ping... ping... ping...back into darkness... into unconsciousness... into prior to consciousness... into nothingness...

And yet beloveds now KNOW YOU that nothingness is everything...! ‘All that is’- fulfilled indeed- is nothing...!. And all that is- that you gave so much of importance to... is nothingness being itself! This will change your very idea of wanting... to be all that is... rather than wanting to be... nothingness...

-For what is that something that light lights...? And gives life to...? But... unconsciousness... nothingness..!.  And therefore... how can you truly call nothingness... nothingness...? When it gives life to all that is... How can it be nothing   ?

Therefore beloveds... Nothingness is only completed consciousness...And when complete... fulfilled... a fresh tremor arises... just as spontaneously…What reason...?  What reason do you look for? What reason can there be?

(SILENCE)

MUSIC BEGINS

Take this beyond the abstract now...  take this beyond Shiva and Shakti... and void and consciousness... unconsciousness...

Be somewhere in this beautiful place...the mountains... the breeze... the flowers... you are resting... all is so good; and you just feel ah; and tremble in that spontaneous bliss; And if you become aware, indeed only as you suddenly become aware of what that... ahhhhh was about... will you know... it was love... just love for self...for that moment... for that now; you will become aware of the bliss...in that one spontaneous unconscious ah;  you will become aware of the joy within... the abundance all around;  and as soon as you become aware...that moment passes... till a fresh one will arise! And as you begin live in this awareness... these tremors will be in you... moment to moment to moment to moment...

MUSIC PLAYS ON...DIVYAA LAUGHS IN BLISS...

-A gurgle,a laughter in unconsciousness, rising of kundalani existence coming into being!

-Light being born....birth of consciousness… nothing but a gurgle of pure laughter... and then as you laugh... as you gurgle... as all comes to light... there is naught but love!

-As all comes to life... then do you become aware... of why the laughter arose... what is there to enjoy... what is there to love... and you spend eternity... eternity in loving each and every aspect... enjoying each and every aspect...!

-And then when fulfilled... complete... replete... nothing more to know... nothing more to love... nothing more to experience...

-‘You’... ping... ping... ping...out

DIVYAA LAUGHS...MUSIC PLAYS ON...

Allow your kundalinis to rise... allow that tremor... see yourself in the mountain... see yourself at the window...see yourself lying in bed...and... ah... no reason... ah going through you...! Bringing to life that moment... and you sit up in bed... and say... oh! Wow... oh! Wow... wow wow… why did that come... from where did that come? And yet it was only a split second...the moment...and you call it existence... consciously knowing  that ah …oh…wow!

(DIVYAA LAUGHINGLY) …and you call it existence...!

(MUSIC PLAYS ON FOR A WHILE...) Consciousness getting fulfilled... Shiva is disappearing...abiding back...

Om Mani Padme Hum...the jewel rests in the beingness of the lotus of unconsciousness.... Unconsciousness...non awareness... just a dark ... cool pool... lapping in itself...against itself...As the two aspects of water rub against each other...completely at rest ...and yet ...this rest is nothingness...inherently has within it all that is.. Pure being ness...love...vibration...sound...music...just dancing...pulsating...

Yes...and once again the tremor and the bubble rises...Enjoy being the bubble...fulfill your reasons to be...

And in this will you all open your eyes...slowly and softly...

DIVYAA LAUGHS SOFTLY...THEN HER LAUGHTER RINGS IN THE AIR...AND SHE SAYS:Oh! Wow!And we spend existence trying to figure out that one...one...tremor of…!

Post the meditation divyaa is lighting up a piece of dhoop and says: See it in this beloveds, see it in this ... when I light it it... each aspect of it gets  lit … and for a moment is each aspect lit and yet when wholly lit… it glows for a while...and then the glow goes...and it just dissolves into nothingness… it goes out…dissolves into the ash ….the real stuff its made off; and yet it’s fragrance is all over...of nothingness…

And that is how it All began… and if you understand it through all of this you will understand that inspite of the long meditation I could  put only 5% to word… 5 % if at all…to word…