WHY EXISTENCE? SPECIALLY WHY MUST PAIN T BE A PART OF IT ALL?

A transcription of one of my earliest discourses (2003.) I would change many of the terms I have used – and the transcript is sketchy -but go with the gist please!

And we wonder why existence? Why life? What pain and problems? Just think what ‘That’ must be- to eternally and infinitesimally WILL to be! We cannot even conjure…and perhaps, perhaps catch but a glimpse when we view every beautiful scene, experience, relationship…we have ever experienced….! Perhaps in what we have found penultimate beauty -we may catch a glimpse why…! (And in the simpler: when I hug my dog, I feel wow, how lovely to have become man and dog and enjoy the love so tangibly)

And imagine as Shiva- as that I- awareness- I am always experiencing each and every aspect of this beauty, glory, love, wisdom, power, creativity…(Shakti) call it what you may…and in a multi focus! Together! At once! I am immersed in it- drunk in it….And so where the ‘not good’-ugly –pain- problem…when I am so focused on all this splendor! (Like the sexual act, is focused on the love, joy, bliss and union… not on the abrasion of ‘two’ bodies.

And each of us- always retains that focus- of course in deep sleep- but even when awake we are connected to all of this ‘unconsciously’…. every moment …or we would not live for even a fraction of a moment! We truly ‘pulsate’ out of this in nano-split seconds (kshan) to enjoy life…but this joy and bliss is the bed from where we pulsate ‘out’ so to say! Into which we ‘rest’, kshan to kshan… nano second to nano second…and as we evolve from self to Self… as we abide as witness… we abide here more consciously!

Lets view this through an analogy-when you are playing a game- snakes and ladders, opponents, the dice of destiny, choices on the board…you know you are Divyaa and at home with beloveds…and however much your focus may be on the game, or movie, or book -how ever deeply engrossed you may be-a part of you KNOWS who, where, what you are and thus enjoys thoroughly the whole process… And like that we always always do!

The trick is to become more and more aware! To switch the focus from game, book, movie-life- inwards to this continued joy, bliss, love, resting motion! To that knowing-(what we are doing through these classes and sessions and reading) and to that feeling (through meditations and life)! And paradoxically as we switch focus from the single point/focus of outer day to day life on the outside- we become multi- focus inside! We expand our focus to encompass more and more of what we are- that’s what happens in meditation and then 24/7- and that’s what we truly are : multi focus beings (not the uni-focus of any given outside life ) till we reach ‘back’ to being Shiva- completely all encompassing, omnipotent focus! Or more accurately till our focus expands ‘back’ into being the whole!

Yes, we have chosen a single finely honed focus through physical life- willfully-like when we choose to go to movie or game and ‘switch of” our ‘larger self’ of this analogy… so to say… so that we may get all out of that experience/book/game/movie! Otherwise its like going to movie and having your cell on, and your home, servants, kids ‘on’ through the movie…like having your laptop with you and doing office work during the movie…! No we choose to disconnect’ from them partially- to enjoy the movie wholly!? And so we do for each life! But just like in this analogy-however much you may disconnect to focus on the movie-you always always know the rest of you! When the movie or book is very gory- however sad you may feel- because ‘you’ are ‘you’ in real life and not the movie however engrossing it may be… you do not wholly suffer in that! And so switch your focus now to the REAL you in life…to the witness-the inside who is drunk in the joy and bliss who he/she is for we are always connected to this Self!

And now think: pain? Problems? Think Shiva viewing all his splendor- think of real things- not just the word- and you will catch a glimpse that what we call problems don’t exist! They are the (I am not) or the steps in the game that plays itself out for the game to be -which we willfully choose for pure joy! So you can’t say but I am in pain because I have the veils and have forgotten who I am and how silly, why this game? You have NOT FORGOTTEN-YOU CANNOT INDEED! How do I say this, for there are no words: its part of the game to think you have forgotten! But you have not or you wouldn’t live for a fraction! On any realm! Leave alone physical! It’s like saying but what if I forgot in the movie, I am Divyaa? What if I forgot in the game, we are best friends….you cant! You don’t! You designed it that way! Oh you may get swept away….but that’s part of why you chose that movie or book or game- ….! But you always know….! Right? And that’s the game/movie// book of physical earth life- a more intense movie or book than others- but, which you choose and why you choose it! In others realms it may not be so ‘engrossing or intense’ and so we remember more! And yes- that has its own joy- just like we need restful books or music programs too!

And imagine the love, the will, the creativity… imagine…how much… how much? To want to play this game… just to be each and everything I can!!! Imagine the confidence! Will you go for a movie if you were told you would forget self- aha-it would depend on yr confidence! Many will say yes -what fun- like the roller-coaster rides….!

And further- when the game/movie is over- the overall experience that is stored, retained is the fun, love, learning, camaraderie etc what you gained from the movie etc…not each scene or throw of the dice! And like that as a Shiva: no thing other than that fulfillment- is! No words so please use these all to go beyond. Even your causal bodies- souls- don’t know pain…problems….there is no thing like that! For this part of you…what we can call the more ‘real part’…only stores the sum total: the joy, bliss, love, wisdom…! Its like saying when the pain… of say a death scene in the movie is over…you are carrying its pain around with you- (and ha- when do you- when you get so involved in it that you forget yourself more…yet never wholly or u would die in the movie)- and yet the moment you can switch your focus back to the ‘real’ you- there IS NO PAIN of the death in the movie! For the death or scene didn’t happen! It wasn’t! It wasn’t! It didn’t happen! It was only a beautiful experience with friends and popcorn and a dinner thereafter to share even more!! And why did Divyaa CHOOSE to go to a movie with death scenes and pain- because it isn’t- it isn’t ‘real’-it isn’t- it doesn’t matter-I KNOW THAT!!!! And so do I joyfully go!

No words….

Divyaa 2003

SOME QUOTES FROM MORE RECENT WRITINGS ON THE SUBJECT:

Maya is the divine hypnotist; awareness the divine de-hypnosis! As we move into awareness & its de-hypnosis can we better enjoy the show of Maya -the mystery & illusion-the ups & downs of day to day life - from the best seats in the house! In this de-hypnosis we abide in the 'gap' between the breath and witness the drama/Maya that every breath brings on!


No ‘me’/ ego self/personal identity = no doer = no one to suffer = no thing like suffering! In the deeper sense this actually answers the question that we all grapple with at some point: “Why would we as God/Consciousness create a world with pain & suffering?” So yes as long as there is a me...suffering seems to be. But …No ‘me’ = no doer = no one to suffer = no thing like suffering … !This can best be understood through the analogy of why we create the experience of a movie or a game: we willfully create & go to movie’s with ups & downs in their story line, but as we are not the characters of the movie, we actually ‘enjoy’ the experience of the conflicts, trauma’s and pain within the story line…without suffering! We have not created a painful experience, inspite of the seeming pain we have created in the movie!  Let’s take the analogy of a game: we choose to play snakes & ladders with its ups & downs but as we are not the counter on the board we actually ‘enjoy’ the experience of the games traumas and exultations! We have not created a painful experience inspite of the snakes seemingly gobbling us in the game! Thus as God/Consciousness we have created ‘the world’ in a similar manner – we have not really created suffering and pain –inspite of the seeming ups and downs…. and as self/personal identity/ ego/ ‘me’ dissolves… as there is increasingly no me = no doer = no one to suffer = no thing like suffering … becomes an experiential gnosis and not merely an intellectual concept …nor a question we put to ‘God’ asking why?

Divyaa Kummar